Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

An Imperfect Life

By Midnight Dreamer

Chapter 32: Tough Decisions

(SPOV)

Bella decided just to let fate take it’s course. She said she refused to be like Alice and mettle in other peoples lives. Smart girl! She is learning from the mistakes of others around her. Jasper will be happy for that. As for what will happen next is a whole other problem.

Here I am waiting for Jasper to return home. Bella told me of her dream and I hope I can at least stop Jasper from draining or even biting the poor kid. He should have the decision on whether he wants to be a vampire and join Alice for eternity. I don’t know what to expect but I told Bella to pack a bag anyway just in case. I know it’s going to be tough if he runs but hopefully he will get over it quickly.

Simon

Yes Jasper.

I’m almost home.

I figured I can smell you already.

Jasper appeared at the tree line then.

“Welcome home Jasper”

“Thank you Simon”

“Well let’s get you inside everyone is waiting for you.”

“Okay”

We walked through the door together. I could feel all the emotions of the others in the house. They were excited to see Jasper. Well most of them were. I could feel Alice’s lust and confusion from her room. I was blocking Jasper’s powers so he wouldn’t snap right away. The rest would like to at least say hello before the shit hits the fan. Suddenly Carlisle and Esme were in front of us.

“Jasper it is so good to have you home.” Esme

“Yes son, it is good to have you return home. Did you find what you were looking for?” Carlisle

“Yes I believe I did.” Jasper

Movement on the stairs told us of Emmett and Rose’s appearance. Emmett was very loud even for a human.

“Hello Jazz” Rose

“Welcome back Bro” Emmett

“It’s good to be back. Where is Edward and Alice?” Jasper

“Edward went hunting and Alice is in the bedroom upstairs.” Rose

“Oh. Well I should go see her. We need to discuss some things.” Jasper

Jasper left the room then walking at a humans pace up the stairs. Boy was he in for a big surprise.

(JPOV)

I could tell they were all hiding something from me. Even Simon was blocking my power so I couldn’t feel everyone’s emotions. Not that I don’t appreciate it at times but give a guy some warning. As I got closer to the room I could smell not only Alice in the room but someone else. A HUMAN! What the hell is going on here? How could I have not sensed him from down stairs? Damn that Simon. I slowly open the door to see not just Alice and some human talking but locked into a passionate kiss. What the Hell is going on!  I growled loudly, making not only the human but Alice jump as well. Not something you can do easily by the way. She stood there looking like an owl for I don’t know how long. I could feel my anger rising at what I just witnessed. I thought she loved me? I know I was coming up here to tell her we were over but come on. At least I had the decency to not flaunt my new feelings in front of the whole family. Hell I wasn’t even sure if I had a new relationship. I could tell they were both scared which didn’t help. It only fueled my anger more. I was starting to see a red haze blurring my vision. I knew what was coming. “The Major”. Looking at the expression on Alice’s face she knew what was coming too. She started to try and say something but I held my hand up and stopped her. I didn’t want to hear anything from her. No I’m sorry, no please forgive me. Nothing! I didn’t care. It took every once of restraint I had not to tear her limb from limb and drain the blood bag. But I knew that would hurt me more then it would hurt them. I looked at Alice and saw she was terrified. I would have normally been heartbroken to see that I had done this to her but her fear only fed the Major more. Suddenly I felt the urge to run. Simon! I knew this was his doing but I appreciated the gesture. I would regret doing something to Alice. She may not be the one I was meant for but I still loved her in a sense. So I did the only thing I could do. I bolted out the nearest exit. Running. Not caring where I was going just knowing that I had to get away from that place was enough. I ran for what felt like days. It would do until I calmed down. What was I going to do now? I couldn’t let anyone see me like this. Oh god what is Bella going to think? I was supposed to see her today. To talk about all of this. Suddenly the red got darker. I knew this line of thinking was only making me madder at Alice for ruining my plans to see Bella. I need to calm down before I can see her. I wonder if she will be hurt? Of course she will you ass, she loves you. Shit I was an ass. Oh great now I’m having conversations with my self. I wonder if this is how Bella and Simon feel? Bella…*sigh*

(BPOV)

I woke to a new day. Jasper was to be home today and I couldn’t wait to see him. I knew what I wanted, I just hope he did too. Just in case of catastrophe I gave Carlisle a letter for Jasper. I knew from the dream he would run; I just hope he came back. I know the turn of events with Alice was going to mess things up but I hope he sees that he is not alone in this. Simon told me to pack a bag just in case. Great if Jazz freaks I’m going to be drug to Italy with Simon to go see the Vulturi. Just how I wanted to spend my first time in Italy. I hope Jasper is okay. I can’t wait to see him. Suddenly I got this awful pang of dread course through me. Shit this isn’t good. I have a feeling that something bad is going to happen. I walked out to the front porch to see if maybe I just needed some fresh air to clear my head but as soon as I stepped foot out the door I could feel someone coming. I could hear their foot falls on the leaf covered forest floor. A case of déjà vu’ spread over me, and I knew who it was. Simon! I watched as he came to a stop at the bottom of the porch step, the look on his face confirmed my suspicions and I could tell he knew that I knew already. I slowly turned and entered the house. I grabbed my bag from beside the door and walked back to Simon.

“Let’s go”

That was all I said. He knew not to push the issue. I wasn’t thrilled to be going with him but I knew if I stayed around here I would only blame myself for what happen and wallow in self hatred. So off we went. Everyone already knows not to expect to see me around for awhile. We discussed the possibilities of what could happen last night after Alice and Davey departed from our company. They all agreed with Simon that I should take some time away and sort through my feelings about what would happen. So of course I was out voted. Damn I hate democracy. Why can’t they just let me wallow and deal with this my way. Oh well perhaps it’s for the best. At least I can say I got to go to Italy for a while. Hell I couldn’t even tell you how long we were going for or when we were coming home. I don’t know how long it could take for Simon to fix what he believes is broken. But I can’t wait to see the look on their faces when he shows up. They all think he is dead. This at least will be entertaining. I could hear Simon snickering next to me. I knew he could hear what I was thinking at this moment but he didn’t comment. Another reason I loved Simon.

It didn’t take us long to get to the airport. We went through customs and the security check to make sure we weren’t a threat to society. I chuckled at this slightly knowing that they were looking for weapons when the only weapon was Simon himself. He looked at me quizzically and just shook his head. I thought it was funny. So here we sit in a stuffy crowded plane. Surrounded by oblivious humans and annoying flight attendants. I think if I have to see one more woman flirt with Simon I’m going to hurl. Do these women have no dignity what so ever? I don’t think they do. I settled into my seat and put my head back, closing my eyes. I figured it was going to be a long flight so I might as well catch some zzz’s.