She’s So Gone
By Midnight Dreamer
Chapter 18:
“Zavier” Rose repeated silently with shocked eyes. “As in old school Zavier? Where?”
“Out there.”
“It’s okay Izzy.”
“Bella! Bella is that you”
“Sir you’re not allowed back there. It’s for band members and performers only.” They heard the bouncer say.
“Rose” Izzy whimpered.
“Time to toughin up Swan. You’re not that girl anymore. Don’t let him get to you. You said it yourself…Bella doesn’t exist anymore. Your Izzy fuckin Swan! Now buck up because the others are coming.”
“Okay.”
Izzy sniffled a little before takin a big breath and steeling herself for the others. When they came over she was smiling and looked like she just won the lottery.
“You did it Izzy!” Jasper said as he picked her up and swung her around. Shocking the shit out of all of them. Izzy giggled and hugged him back.
“I knew you were nervous and worried about goin on stage but look you rocked.”
“Yeah I did didn’t I?” Izzy smiled looking around at her new friends and then back at Jasper.
“Yeah now we just have to wait to find out who takes home 1st.” Alice said snidely.
Izzy shook her head at Alice as Jasper let her down on her own feet.
“Alice what is wrong with you?” Rose asked.
“Nothing” Alice said trying to sound innocent.
“Yeah I’m not buying what you’re trying to sell, we will talk about this later.” Rose said pointedly at Alice.
Alice knowing that Rose stood true to her words nodded.
“So now what?” Izzy asked.
“Well like Alice said we wait for the results.”
They all went back to the area that was set aside for Izzy and listened to the last two performers. They were good and got applause but they didn’t sound as deafening to Izzy as the cheers that she or the band got. Izzy thought that was a good sign or maybe it wasn’t? She had never done anything like this before.
Izzy started bouncing her leg in a nervous habit.
“Izzy chill will ya..you’re making us all nervous.” Emmett said.
“Sorry. I don’t know what came over me. I have never done anything like this before…” Izzy replied stopping just short of calling him Link. Rose and Jasper must of noticed her pause cause they started chuckling.
“It’s alright Iz. I remember the first time we all went up there. Hell you saw Eddie tonight…he was more nervous than a virgin on prom night.” Emmett wagged his brows.
“Oh my god…you did not just say that?” Alice squeaked.
“Yes he did.” Rose rolled her eyes. But Izzy caught the slight smile on her lips.
“Okay I get it. It’s okay to be scared and nervous.”
“Use it.” Jasper said.
“What?”
“Use it. Turn your feelings into music. Put your emotions behind your lyrics and you will get a better reaction from the crowd.”
“Thanks Jazz.”
“Jazz?”
“Yep… You’re in a band. You play music. There for Jazz.”
“Okay.” Jasper replied shrugging.
“Ladies and gentlemen can I have your attention please. After much debate on the judge’s part they have come to a standoff. So without further ado, your 1st place winners are Misguided Misfits, and Izzy Swan.”
The cheers erupted.
“Okay settle down. Now as this has never happened before in the history of the showcase we are asking you to decide how we should break the tie.”
“Sing off, Sing off, Sing off!”
“Well there you have it folks. Our two winners will be singing off to see who takes home the trophy and gets the check for 10,000 dollars to be given to their sponsors.”
“Holy shit. I didn’t know we were singing for money?”
“Yeah Izzy. It’s to help the sponsors with upgrades or repairs or what not.”
“Wow.”
“So what are you singing?” Edward asked Izzy.
“I had to prepare an extra piece incase this would happen which makes no sense seeing as how he said it has never happened before.”
“There’s a first time for everything Izzy.”
“Ain’t that the truth” Izzy sighed.
“Izzy is there something wrong?” Jasper asked.
“No just was hoping this was a one time and done thing. I thought i would come, sing, play, wrack up some business for Unc and then go home. Not that i would have to compete against you guys for a trophy or anything else.”
“Well now is the time to shine Izzy.” Rose said.
“Alright so how is this gonna go down?” Edward asked no one in particular.
Just as he finished his question, the bouncer came back and said that since the Misfits were reigning champions they got to go first. Izzy sighed in relief. At least she had a few more minutes to get herself prepared to once again go out in front of some of her peers. Izzy walked to the side of the stage and looked out over the crowd while Jasper’s band set up.
She eyed the group that Zavier was with. She saw that she didn’t really know any of the guys that sat around his table. Then she caught sight of the group of girls headed toward his table. Their front in center was the bane of her existence. Marsha. She was sure that it was Marsha who was behind the whole syrup thing at prom.
Izzy shivered and looked over to when she felt eyes on her again. Jasper was looking at her from behind his drum set with a small smile on his face. When she glanced away she caught sight of Rose. Rose looked at her questioningly, Izzy gestured in the direction of where Zavier was sitting. Rose looked in that direction the same time Izzy did, just in time for them to see Zavier shoving Marsha off his arm. He didn’t look to happy that she and her cronies were there.
Izzy shook her head and went back to watching the band. Jasper counted them off, this time it seemed like Emmett was singing. He seemed comfortable behind the mic, unlike poor Edward.
(Crawling back to you~ Daughtry)
Lessons learned and bridges burn to the ground.
And it’s too late now to put out the fire.
Tables turned and I’m the one who’s burning now.
Well I’m doing alright ’till I close my eyes and,
Then I see your face and it’s no surprise
Just like that I’m crawling back to you.
Just like you said I would yeah.
I swallowed my pride now I’m crawling back to you.
I’m out of my head can’t wait any longer.
Down on my knees I thought I was stronger.
Just like that, like you said I’d do.
I’m crawling back to you…
Time can heal but the scars only hide the way you feel.
And it’s hard to forget how I left you hangin’.
On by a thread and everything I said I regret it.
Well I was doing alright thought I could make it.
Then i see your face and it’s hard to fake.
Just like that I’m crawling back to you.
Just like you said I would yeah…
I swallowed my pride now I’m crawling back to you.
I’m out of my head can’t wait any longer.
Down on my knees I thought I was stronger.
Just like that, like you said I’d do.
I’m crawling back to you.
If you could find a way to forgive everything.
I know you would
And I would take it all back if only
I knew that I could.
Lessons learned and bridges burn to the ground.
And it’s too late now to put out the fire.
Just like that I’m crawling back to you.
Just like you said I would yeah.
I swallowed my pride now I’m crawling back to you.
I’m out of my head can’t wait any longer.
Down on my knees I thought i was stronger.
Just like that, like you said I’d do.
I’m crawling back to you…
Izzy noticed that several times during that song that Emmett glanced over at Rose. She knew he was singing to her but Rose seemed oblivious. Izzy just shook her head. She would have to talk to Rose.
The crowd erupted into cheers once again. As the band took their bows Izzy prepared for her performance. A few deep breaths and a wink from Jasper she knew she could do this. Now she just had to get out there and sing.
As the crowd settled, Jasper and the gang settled around the side of the stage they just exited. They wanted a better view of Izzy and hoped that them sitting there would help her keep her courage.
It got quiet as Izzy stepped up on the stage. She strapped up her guitar and began to play.
(Anything but Ordinary ~Avril Lavigne)
Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out.
I laugh myself to sleep
It’s my lullaby.
Sometimes i drive so fast
Just to feel the danger.
I wanna scream
It makes me feel alive.
Is it enough to love
Is it enough to breathe
Somebody rip my heart out
and leave me here to bleed.
Is it enough to die
Somebody save my life.
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please.
To walk within the lines.
Would make my life so boring.
I want to know that I
Have been to the extreme.
So knock me off my feet
Come on now give it to me.
Anything to make me feel alive.
Is it enought to love
Is it enough to breathe
Somebody rip my heart out
And leave me here to bleed.
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please.
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please.
Let down your defences
Use no common sense
If you look you will see
that this world is a beautiful
Accident
turbulent
succulent
opulent
permantent
no way
I wanna taste it
don’t wanna waste it away.
Sometimes I get so weird
I even freak myself out
I laugh myself to sleep
It’s my lullaby.
Is it enough
Is it enough
Is it enough to breathe
Somebody rip my heart out
and leave me here to bleed.
Is it enough to die
Somebody save my life.
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please.
Is it enough
Is it enough to die
Somebody save my life.
I’d rather be anything but ordinary please.
Oh….
I’d rather be anything but ordinary.
Please
As she strung the last cord there were loud whistles and cheers. She looked around and saw that they were once again standing and clapping for her. She gave them all a shy smile.
“Thank you.” she whispered into the mic, then stepped toward Jasper and Rose.
“Bella?”
Izzy froze for a second but connected eyes with Rose, and continued toward her and Jasper as if nothing happened. She could see Zavier working his way through the crowd toward the stage, so she picked up her pace slightly. She was caught in a bear hug by Emmett as she stepped off the stage.
“Izzy…” Emmett cheered as he spun her around.
“Alright Emmett put Izzy down so she can breathe.” Rose told him.
As soon as Izzy was on her own feet she felt a hand on her shoulder.
“Bella?”
She went to turn around to say something but Emmett beat her to it.
“Sorry dude you must be mistaken. Her name is Izzy. Now beat it.”
“Bella is that you?”
Izzy turned around and looked at Zavier.
“I’m sorry but I have no idea who you are looking for but I ashure you my name is not Bella. I’m Izzy Swan. You are?”
“I’m sorry you just looked like someone I used to know.”
“Apology accepted.”
Izzy turned back toward the rear of the stage when she heard Zavier talk again.
“ I could have sworn that was Bella. She looks so much like her.”
“Dude I’m sorry but that’s our Izzy.” Emmett told the guy.
“What happen to this Bella?” Edward asked.
“Don’t know. I went off for summer vacation after graduation and when I came home just before college it was like she disappeared into thin air. Her mother said she didn’t know where she went, or hadn’t heard from her since after school let out. Rumor was she ran away. But I’m not so sure. That doesn’t seem like the Bella I knew.”
“Are you sure?” Alice asked.
“Yeah I’m sure. She was my best friend. Then something stupid happened at prom to her and she took off, I chased after her but she was to fast for me to catch up to her. Then it was like she vanished again. She was always good at being invisible. She was called the Ghost after all.”
Izzy began silently crying. Her mom went all out to help protect her. Even telling them that she hasn’t heard from her in months when in reality she talked to her yesterday, and at least twice a week since she moved here. Rose hugged Izzy and lead her away from everyone.
“It’s okay Izzy. You did the right thing.”
“I don’t know Rose. He seemed sincere.”
They could still hear them all talking but they couldn’t see them. It wasn’t until Marsha’s voice rang through the crowd.
“Zavier, what are you doing over here? I thought we were gonna get something to eat afterwards?”
“I thought I saw Bella?”
“The Ghost.”
“Don’t call her that.”
“Oh come on..the only reason you asked her to prom was because of the bet you had with the guys.”
“That’s not true. She was a really good person Marsha.”
“So your saying that you didn’t have a bet that you could get her to sleep with you after prom.”
“That’s exactly what I’m saying.”
It sounding like something clicked, and soon you could hear voices being. Izzy recognized those voices right away. It was Zavier and his friends.
Dude you so have to get in her pants.
That was the bet wasn’t it?
When dude?
After prom.
Your asking her to prom?
Yeah what better way to get her to give in, it’s like a right of passage to loose your virginity at prom for a girl. She just gets to do it ahead of schedual.
Man that’s so wicked.
I know right.
The anger that ran through Izzy had her so red in the face you could swear she had steam coming out her ears.
“Where did you get that?” Zavier asked.
“You didn’t think the guys wouldn’t keep some sort of leverage incase you got cold feet. But I couldn’t let you go through with it! If you wouldn’t sleep with me then there was no way I could let you sleep with her. So I set up the whole syrup thing…straight out of Stephen Kings Carrie, minus all the flames and death.” Marsha finished.
“You guys are cruel. It’s no wonder the poor girl ran away. And you said she was your best friend?” Alice said. Shocking the shit out of both Rose and Izzy.
“Fine.. it may have started out that way, but she was really cool when she wasn’t all invisible. She was smart and funny. I miss her. I wasn’t gonna go through with the bet anyway. I kinda fell for her….” Zavier finished.
“Well dude you seriously blew that shit. How could you do that to someone you had feelings for?” Emmett asked.
“I tried to stop her when she ran! She was so fast. I figured I would catch her when I got back from vacation and apologize, but she was long gone.” Zavier said.
Izzy was still fuming. It was all a lie. He acted like her friend only because of a bet. It didn’t make any difference that somewhere along the line he started to feel things for her. The way it all started negated the whole friendship. How could she be so stupid. Of course she should have seen it, why would the king of the school ever see anything remotely interesting in “the Ghost”.
Rose must have figured out what Izzy was thinking cause she grabbed Izzy’s shoulders and shook her slightly to get her attention. When their eyes met Rose spoke.
“Izzy stop it right now. It’s in the past. Those things happened to Bella Dwyer, not Izzy Swan. Your not “the Ghost” anymore. You rockin Izzy. And you have the hottest most wanted man in our entire school drooling over you.”
“Huh?”
“Jasper you fool. Don’t you see it.”
“No. But I could ask you the same.”
“Huh?”
“Emmett?”
“What do you mean?”
“When Emmett was singing that song, he kept looking back at you. Like he was singing that song to you.”
“OH.” was her brillant response.
They were soon interupted by the rest of the group.
“Wow that dude has some nerve.” Emmett said.
“Really?” Rose asked pretending to be clueless to the whole situation.
“Yeah, he had this bet with his buds to hook up with this poor sophmore girl only to get into her pants on prom night. Then some slutty tramp came over and told us that she ruined it all because she was a jealous whore.” Emmett answered.
Izzy giggled at his discription of Marsha.
“Wonder where that poor girl is now?” Edward asked.
“Don’t know but I’m glad she ditched that douche bag. It wouldn’t have been any good for her anyway.” Alice said.
Rose and Izzy both looked at Alice in shock. They wondered if she would feel the same way if she knew that Bella Dwyer was standing right there in front of her. Jasper saw the look pass between the girls and just shook his head. He couldn’t understand how they couldn’t believe that Alice was a good person. Sure she was being cold and bitchy, but he knew why.
Alice had the biggest crush on him growing up. Just last year she got up the nerve to ask him out, but he had turned her down. He couldn’t do that to Edward. Edward was head over heels for Alice and he couldn’t break the guy code. It’s like the number one rule. You don’t go after your buds girl. Even if that girl doesn’t know she is taken. But now that Jasper is showing interest in Izzy, her jealousy is showing through even though she is with Edward. It would pass and they would all be okay. He hoped.
Through all the comotion they didn’t realize how much time had passed, until they once again heard the announcer.
“Okay guys and gals. This years winner of the store band showcase is…..Izzy Swan!”
Holy smokes. Izzy had won. She beat out Jaspers band who have won this thing for the last 4 years.
“Way to go Izzy. Go get your stuff. We will wait for you back here.” Rose said.
“Okay.”
Jasper gave her a quick hug and wink before he to chased her off to the front where they heard the applause roar as Izzy stepped on stage.
“Well at least it wasn’t some strange accordian quartet or something that beat us.” Alice said.
“Yeah it was Izzy.” Edward said.
“She was great!” Emmett said.
“Yeah she was.” Rose said.
“She deserves this.” Jasper said.
If he only knew how right he was.
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