Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Wanted

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 12:

EPOV

These past three days have been the longest of my life. Currently Bella was sleeping. After we got her into Forks ER she went into respiratory arrest. She stopped fucking breathing. She had a seizure and stopped fucking breathing.

Carlisle intubated her. He saved her life. He said something about salt water inhalation throwing off the PH of the blood and causing oxygen to leave the bloodstream. All I knew was that the girl I fell in love with the first time I walked into Jake’s garage, the one who made my heart stop with a shy smile, stopped breathing and there wasn’t a damn thing I could do about it. Mom was right. Turning into a damn wolf doesn’t solve everything. I’m beginning to wonder if it solves anything. Bella was hooked up to a breathing machine. She looked horrible. Charlie came. Carlisle told him that Bella slipped off the cliff. He didn’t need to know she jumped. He has been here continuously since she came. When they aren’t patrolling Leah and Paul have been here. Even Jake has come. I let him in. He did help save her.

Yesterday she began breathing on her own fairly well and Carlisle felt it was safe enough to take her off the machine.

Mom suggested I take a break and get air. I walked outside and jogged to the forest where I phased and began to tear up trees with my claws. Sam and Leah were phased and my mind was on that damn video. They saw it. Soon the pack knew what happened to Bella. I guess there really are no secrets in our little family.

Today I was sitting by my Bella’s bedside waiting for her to wake up. Alice Cullen and Rosalie Cullen were sitting with me. I didn’t even notice the smell anymore. They never did catch Edward. They gave up when Esme called and told them what happened. Apparently Alice can’t see around Wolves. Since Leah was there Alice couldn’t keep an eye on her.

“Alice can you see when she will wake up?” I whispered.

“No. I’m sorry Embry.”

“Is it because I’m here?”

“No. I think it’s because she hasn’t decided when she will wake up.”

I laid my head back on her hand. Her hand was so small and so cold. I looked at the scar on her wrist.

Hours went by. Alice and Rose were replaced by Esme and Leah. Mom came in and out. She had appointed herself Bella’s personal nurse and no nurse in Forks hospital was going to get in her way.

I had dozed off around 7 PM. I woke to feel Bella’s hand moving across mine. I picked up my head. Her eyes were open. She tried to talk but couldn’t.

“Don’t try to talk baby. Your throat. Just don’t. Okay? I’m going to call Mom and Carlisle.”

She nodded and I texted both the Doctor and the nurse.

“Bella do you remember what happened?”

She motioned with her hands for something to write with. I grabbed a pen and writing pad from the desk next to the room phone.

She began writing. She showed me the pad.

“Am I dead?”

“No Bella. You aren’t dead. You died. A couple times. But you are not dead.”

I saw tears fall in her eyes. Maybe she was in pain? She showed me the tablet and I realized I was more right than I knew. She was in pain.

“WHY CAN”T I DIE?”

I really didn’t know what to say to that. She put her face in her hands and began crying.

“Bella please don’t leave me.”

She stopped crying long enough to write out another message.

“You can do better.”

And she threw the pad and pen to the floor. She turned on her side facing the wall. She let me touch her. But she didn’t turn towards me.

“Bella?” I heard Carlisle say when he walked in. Mom bent down and picked up the pad. She showed it to Carlisle.

“Carlisle I need to know when she is medically able to leave this hospital. The minute you say she is safe for what we talked about I need to get her out of here.”

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The past two days, have not been much better. Bella has gotten stronger. There do not appear to be any breathing problems any longer. Her heart seems strong. She has been walking again. And she refuses to talk to anyone. Even me. Even Charlie, Even Esme and Alice. She won’t even look us in the eye.

The breaking point for me came this morning. Bella went missing. Apparently escaping from vampires in airports isn’t her only specialty. She can walk out of hospitals undetected to. I was called away because a nomad had gotten near our land. I left Quil with her. The Cullens were somewhere. I have no idea where. Carlisle had been more secretive lately. I was wondering if he wasn’t coming up with some plan to kidnap Bella, but the more I thought about it, the more ridiculous it sounded. He could have done that at any time in the past. No, whatever he was dealing with was more likely something he didn’t want us to have to deal with. Maybe Edward. Maybe the Denali Clan. Either way Bella was left with Quil.

When I came back, Quil was in a chair in the corner of her room, asleep. And Bella’s bed was empty.

“Where the fuck is she Quil?”

Quil jumped up like a shotgun had gone off next to his head.

“Oh shit Embry. Chill man. She wrote on her little pad that she was going for a walk. You know Dr. Cullen says she needs to build up her muscles. She told me to relax and she would be right back.”

“How long ago was this?”

“What time is… oh shit. About two hours ago.”

“YOU ASSHOLE! She is suicidal! There is a reason it is called a suicide watch and not a suicide nap!”

“I’m sorry Embry. Look she couldn’t have gotten far. She was wearing one of those hospital gowns…”

I walked outside looking for her scent. It led to a nurse’s locker room. I looked around and saw no one was looking. I didn’t hear anyone inside. I opened the door and saw…

Her hospital gown on the floor next to a stack of freshly cleaned scrubs.

I could barely follow her trail. I walked outside and picked her up in the front of the hospital. She had been here briefly. She had no money right? Where she could have gone. Her apartment was two miles from here. No way she could have made it.

My phone rang and I saw it was Mom.

“Where is she?” I guess Quil called Mom.

“I don’t know but she is in scrubs and she made it to the front of the hospital.”

“She will be either at Charlie’s or her apartment. She will go to a place that is familiar to her. I got Charlie’s. You take her apartment. Call me when you get there.”

I began running. I could cover 2 miles in 7 minutes without drawing too much attention to myself. I didn’t want everyone to know about this yet. I was afraid if others found her they could spook her, push her into making a drastic move.

I made it to her apartment. I smelt her in the doorway. She had passed this way. She was probably up stairs now. I texted Mom and walked up the stairs to her apartment. The door was open. She had no lights on. I doubt she even bothered paying the bill. She was sitting on the ground in a corner. Clutching a bottle of bourbon. Half of it was gone.

“Bella?”

“Go away Embry. Go away.” Her voice was a little scratchy but clear.

“Bella I can’t live without you.”

“Of course you can. Learn your legends Embry. Billy would be so disappointed in you. Don’t you remember the legend of the third wife?”

“Of course Bella.”

“There had to be two before her in order for her to be the third wife. Think about it Embry. You will survive.”

“Bella. I won’t let you kill yourself.”

“You can’t stop me.” She laughed. “Then again, maybe I really am immortal. I mean is there anything more pathetic than fucking up suicide?”

“Bella this isn’t funny. Put the bottle down. You really shouldn’t be drinking. You still haven’t recovered…”

“No Embry. Leave me alone. We broke up remember?” She had her eyes closed this entire time.

“I don’t care Bella. There isn’t going to be a third wife for me. My legend is only going to have you in it.”

“Embry…”

“Get the fuck up.”

Bella and I both opened our eyes and looked toward the door. There was Mom. And she was pissed.

“No. I’m quite comfortable where I am…”

Mom and Bella are roughly the same size. Same height, same weight. So I don’t know who was more surprised, myself or Bella, when she walked over to Bella and pulled her up by the hair.

“What the fuck? You want to hit me? Go ahead!”

Mom took the bottle from her hand and launched it across the room. It shattered on the opposite wall.

“You bitch!” Bella screamed.

“You have no idea kid. Embry, pack her toothbrush and tooth paste and a backpack with one pair of shorts and a shirt. That’s it. That’s all she gets.”

“Mom what are you…”

“Do what I fucking tell you too Embry! You want her back? Stay the hell out of my way and do what I tell you too. Now go.”

“Stay the fuck out of my…” I heard Bella say before Mom slammed her back against the wall.

“Let go of me.”

“No. You are 90 pounds soaking wet. You don’t eat. You’ve spent the last week in a hospital and now you are probably close to drunk thanks to your little escape act. I can pretty much wipe the floor with you so shut the fuck up Bella.”

I packed what Mom told me too.

“Embry! Pack her a pair of underwear too. Reasonable underwear not the kind you probably like on her!”

Okay then.

I walked out to see Mom standing next to Bella with her hand wrapped in Bella’s hair. Bella looked scared.

“Where are you taking her Mom?”

“Embry do you trust me?”

“Of course.”

“Then I’m not telling you. Emmett Cullen gave me his Jeep. I don’t want you wolves coming. Bella and I have some work to do and we have to be gone from everyone.”

“Don’t let her take me Embry. Please? She will hurt me. I’m scared. Please Embry? I promise I won’t drink. I will go back to the hospital and do whatever Carlisle tells me. Just please don’t let her take me…”

I can’t believe this. Mom is right. I have been enabling her. We all have.

I made the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. As a man or a wolf.

“Take her.”

BPOV

I can’t believe he did this. He let his mother kidnap me. In this car.

“This was the vehicle wasn’t it?”

“I’m not talking to you.” If she thought I was sca…

“You will answer me when I ask you something. Now answer the fucking question!”

“Is this the vehicle the what?”

“This is the one, that Edward Cullen took you to the clearing in right? When the Nomads found you.”

Holy shit.

“You know?”

“I have for a while. I know everything. If you take into account the Pack, you, the elders and me I’m the smartest one in the equation. Of course I knew. I didn’t know about you until recently. But I do now. Carlisle Cullen told me everything. So answer the question.”

“Yes. This was what Edward took me into the ball field in.”

“Wish you had never gotten in to the damn thing don’t you?” She was smiling. Bitch.

“Yeah, you could say that.”

“Poor baby.”

“Fuck you Kay. Just go to hell already. You know you are kidnapping me right? You can’t keep me out here. Wherever the hell we are.”

“Oh I’m not going to keep you there. But you aren’t getting the keys. And we are going to be a long ways away from your precious wolves and vampires. So if you want to go stomping off into the forest, AGAIN, be my guest. There are much easier ways to kill yourself though than slow starvation and mauling by predators though.”

“I can’t stay here Kay.”

“Shut up Bella. When you have something smart to say talk. Until then go back to your little catatonic act you have been pulling since you woke up from your swim.”

“Did you even bring any food? I mean…”

“What you mean is what are you going to drink right?”

Dammit. What the fuck was I going to do?

We drove another four hours. The sky had grown dark. We had been on forest trails for the past two hours. Some of these roads couldn’t even be called roads. I had no clue where we were. I couldn’t tell you what was north and south. If she wanted me lost she did a hell of a job. I felt so weak. My throat was killing me. I felt like vomiting.

We finally pulled to a stop next to a large mountain. I saw a clearing. In it was a beautiful large tent. It looked like it was made of deerskin. Next to it was a fire pit. And in front of the fire pit was a smaller, dome shaped tent. I wonder what that is?

A stream ran at the edge of the clearing. This would have been romantic if Embry had brought me here. Now I am wondering why Kay had to drive all this way to kill me. At least I would have a nice view.

She got out of the Jeep. I did the same. She threw a bag at me.

“Put this on.”

“What is it?”

“Buckskin dress. Put it on. Nothing underneath it. Do it now. Put your scrubs you stole into the bag.”

Okay. I did as she said before she pulled my hair again. I noticed the material was very comfortable. The dress wouldn’t be exactly form fitting but I didn’t exactly have a form so it worked.

“Go into the big tent. See the circle of stones surrounding the camp site? Do not go past those.”

“And if I do?” See how she likes that. She raised an eyebrow at me. I should probably pick my battles.

“I’m taking the Jeep out of sight. There will be nothing unnatural in the camp site. You can brush your teeth after we are done here. Doing it now would be a waste. You are going to be vomiting all night anyway.”

She drove off. I sat in front of the big tent. What did she mean I would be vomiting all night? Now that I had gotten out of the moving vehicle I was feeling better. A little agitated. But I had been kidnapped by Pochohontasauras. Who wouldn’t be? I bet the Cullens have a tracking system in Emmett’s GPS. Esme will come and get me.

“Nobody is going to come and get you. And they all know you are with me. Even Charlie knows by now. The Cullens helped me set this whole thing up. Your imprint doesn’t know where you are. Don’t worry. He will survive a few nights without you.”

Kay came walking up so quietly I’m glad I didn’t make that Pochohontas crack out loud. She was dressed like I was.

“If this is some kind of bonding moment between a mom and her son’s girlfriend, don’t waste your time. We broke up.”

“Do I look like I’m here for bonding?”

“Hey I just didn’t know if this was one of those nature things guys usually have that could get weird.”

“Bella? Shut the hell up.”

Okay then.

“So what are we supposed to be doing? Sitting here? What’s the point?” I was getting annoyed. Very agitated. I needed to do something.

“What’s wrong? Bugs biting you? You sure are squirming a lot.” She smiled at me.

“I’m bored.”

“Aren’t you tired?”

“Yeah I am.” I admitted. I was supposed to be in the hospital.

“So go to sleep. There are rugs in the tent. Go lay down. I’ll make you a deal. If you can sleep clean through the night with no problems I will take you home in the morning.”

“Really?” I asked her raising an eyebrow. I didn’t believe her for a second.

She stuck two fingers up in the air and said “Honest Injun.”

I had to laugh. Sarcastic bitch.

She smiled at me. “C’mon Bella. Just go to sleep. All you have to do is close your eyes and sleep the rest of the night away.”

I was tired. “Okay, Kay. I am going to sleep. And when I get up in the morning be ready to take me home.”

I crawled into the tent. The rugs were so comfortable. I found a pillow that felt like it was the same material my dress was made of. I wanted to lay down and think about Embry. But I couldn’t. I was to tired. I would see him tomorrow maybe. If he could stand the sight of me.

I woke up shaking. I was sweating but I felt so cold. What the hell?

“Kay? Kay I can’t stop… I’m cold Kay. Kay where are you?”

Kay lit a lantern. I looked up at her and saw him. Standing behind her.

“Kay he’s behind you!”

It was James and his damn video camera. Did Kay do something to me that he feels the need to record? Kay turned around.

“Bella, there is no one here. Just us.”

James was staring at me. He was smiling.

“Kkk… kay why can’t I stop shaking?”

“DTs Bella. You haven’t had alcohol in over 14 hours. It is going to get worse before it goes away. In three or four days it will be really bad. I’m sorry I have to do this to you. But it is the only way. You are too damn stubborn, and resourceful for me to leave you with a bunch of teenage boys and vampires to get you through this. You are way to smart for them. Let me know when you need water. I will be here. Right next to you.”

Oh God. I needed alcohol and there was no alcohol. There was nothing. I didn’t even have a damn cigarette.

“Can I have a a ac cig…”

“No. Nothing that is not natural is allowed in the circle. No exceptions. It was probably time for both of us to quit anyway.”

“I… I hate you, Kay.”

“I know Bella. I love you too.”

“Would you hold me? I’m so cold…” and scared, James is gone but I don’t know when he will show back up.

“Of course Bella. That is why I am here. I will be by your side the entire time. But Bella, I promise you, we will get rid of these demons you have before we leave. You are going to be the strong person you deserve to be and my son deserves to have love him. Do you understand?”

“I’m scared.”

“You should be. But you have been scared before and survived. You will survive this as well.”

I felt her arms wrap around me. My legs wouldn’t stop twitching. Oh God…

“Kay, I need to throw up.”

“Here. That’s what this bucket is for. Be glad you have something to throw up. Dry heaves are the worst.”

Kay POV

It has been 48 hours. 48 hours of listening to Bella scream, curse, shake and scratch at me. She has been delirious. I have kept her drinking. Lots of water. I have called Carlisle eight times giving him updates to make sure I am not missing anything. I had a full medical bag in the Jeep if I needed it. Bella has talked to herself. She has talked to people who aren’t there. Not just vampires. She has talked to old friends from I’m guessing Phoenix before she came to Forks. She has spoken to her mother, her father. Her grandmother. She has cried out for Embry but not spoken to him. She cries his name once every hour at least. I have sat here holding her head and wiping a wet cloth across her forehead. The shaking is going down and the fever has subsided. But the hallucinations have continued. It is an unfortunate fact that DT’s cause hallucinations. Most people feel bugs crawling on them. Bella dreams of vampires biting her.

Poor kid.

This morning I woke up and realized I had fallen asleep. This was strange as Bella usually kept me out all night. I realized she was still here. Her head was on my lap. She was snoring. Her hair was a mess. Both of ours were. We both stunk to high heaven I’m sure. But the nice thing about it is we are used to each other so only other people should be bothered by us. And Emmett Cullen, bless his non beating heart, has assured me no one is around for twenty miles.

She woke up around noon.

“Kay?”

“Hey baby girl. Feeling better?”

“Yeah, a little.”

“Think you could handle some food? I have bread, fruit. I don’t think you are ready for meat yet.”

“Yeah. That could be good.”

“Sit up. We are going to get you fed and then go to the stream so you can get cleaned up.”

“What time is it?”

“Judging by the sun I would say noon. Why? You got someplace to be?”

She laughed a little. Looks like a little of old Bella is still there.

“Not yet. When can we go home? Now that I am feeling better can I go home?”

“No sweetie. You got the alcohol withdrawals past you. But that has nothing to do with the demons inside you. We start on those today.”

“What do you mean? What demons?”

“Fear, insecurity, depression, anger, hate, those are all demons Bella that take up residence in our souls. And sweetie you got them all in spades. And we are going to have to get them out of you. There is no time limit for this. But we won’t leave until you get them out. So I would listen very carefully and cooperate if you want to get back to your Embry.”

“You think he will still want me?” she whispered.

“Of course he will. See that’s the insecurity demon coming out.”

“So what are we going to do today?”

“Today we pray.”

She got a slightly panicked look on her face.

“Kay, I don’t… I don’t go to church, I’m not even sure I believe in a God.”

“You have seen men turn into giant wolves to defend a tribe against vampires and you don’t believe in a God?” That was a good one.

“Bella I don’t give a damn who or what you pray to. But you know as well as I do that there is something out there bigger than us. So find it and spend the day getting to know it. I don’t care if you meditate or say a Rosary or pray to Allah. But get in touch with some kind of spirit you can hold on to. You are going to need it.”

I walked off to the Jeep to get her food. Now that she was done with the most serious withdrawals we could get started. It was time to remind this girl who the hell she is.