Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Complicated

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 09:

BPOV

I woke up this morning on a blanket in a tent with Paul’s arms wrapped so tightly around me I never wanted to move. I could hear seagulls singing and the waves crashing into the shore. It was hot in the tent but I didn’t care. I didn’t want to move. But I knew I had to. I had to go face Charlie. And I have a phone call to make. Eventually. Soon. Before tonight.

I tried to fight it. I think I tried to fight it. Maybe I didn’t. But I had decided for sure, sometime between last night and this morning. I was going to let Paul have me. All of me. To do with as he pleases. I knew he would never hurt me. I knew I was strong enough to let him take care of me without losing myself in the process. And the thought of letting Paul have me was driving me wild. I had never been this turned on in my life. I felt him moan and he squeezed me tighter. I couldn’t see his face but I knew he was up.

“Good morning angel.”

“Good morning devil.”

“So what is on the agenda for today?”

“You need to take me home. And stick close by.”

“Going to talk to Charlie hmmm?”

“Yep. And if it goes the way I think it is, I will probably need you to come get me and take me somewhere.”

“Oh I have a few ideas.” He said and I could feel his grin in my hair where his face was currently buried in, sniffing.”

“Paul?”

“Yeah Bella?”

“Tonight. At your house. You told me you knew what I needed. You said you could take care of me, you would take care of me, if I just gave myself to you right?”

“Yes…”

“Tonight Paul. I’m giving myself completely to you tonight. Body and soul.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes. But I know you’re a kinda dominant personality and as you like to point out I am kinda submissive. I am trusting you not to hurt me. Not just my body either. When I give myself to you I am yours. I’ve never given myself completely to someone. A part of me has always held back some. I guess I was just waiting for you. But there are some things you need to know.”

“What would that be?” He asked, looking concerned.

“I’m going back to college in the Fall. I don’t mind living on the reservation after I graduate because I planned to move here anyway after school. But I will finish school.”

“I wouldn’t have it any other way.”

“And you are going to school too. And you will finish. I don’t care what you study or what you do with your life but you are going to be more than a wolf. Understand?”

“Yes Bella.”

“Good now that we got that out of the way let’s pack this tent up so I can go get kicked out of my Dad’s house.” I smiled at him. I tried to make it sound like a joke but I fully expected to be kicked out today. At least I could get some clothes maybe this time instead of walking out with nothing.

“Bella?”

“What Paul?”

“I figure we may as well start now.” He said grinning at me. Oh boy.

“What… what do you mean?”

“Tonight. I want you shaved. Everywhere. Wear a skirt. Thong panties. I would say no panties but I love to smell them get wet for me. And no bra. Leave your hair down.”

Oh my. I could feel myself getting hot. I was blushing. Was I really going to do what he tells me too?

“Okay Paul.” I whispered to him.

Charlie POV

I heard the bike pull up and a few seconds later drive off. Figures he wouldn’t stick around.

She walked in looking like… like she had spent the night at the beach. I promised myself I would stay calm. I promised Sue I would stay calm. She reminded me that Bella was visiting and under no obligation to stay with me or do what I say. And that if I piss her off she could just as likely fly off to Florida. I would stay calm. I could stay calm.

“Have a good night?” I asked her as she walked in. I tried to make it sound casual but I think it came out as anything but.

She sighed and looked at the ground like she does when she is uncomfortable. Then to her credit and my surprise, she looked up and looked me in the eyes.

“Dad, I love you. But you don’t run my life. Matt and I broke up. He is coming back and we still be friends and he is going to spend the summer here eventually. But for right now he needed to go to Texas. I’m not going to lie to you. We are both adults and I don’t feel the need to sneak around. I did at first but then I realized I don’t have to Dad. I know you followed me last night. I know you saw Paul and I together. And I really don’t care. Actually that’s not true. I would appreciate it if you wouldn’t follow me anymore.”

Okay.

“Bella I understand what you are saying, but you are my daughter. I have to look out for what’s best…”

“You don’t pay for my school.”

“What?” Where the hell did that come from?

“I pay for school. I work. I get financial aid under my name not yours. I pay my rent and I pay my bills. Actually that’s not true. Matt and I lived together so we split the bills. So basically you have no say over my life. I take care of me. Dad I love you, but it’s my job to look out for what’s best for me. I love being with you. I do. I want to spend as much time as I can with you. But if you can’t handle the fact that I’m an adult then I can’t stay here Dad. I’m sorry.”

Uh…

“You and Matt lived together?”

“Yeah, second semester.”

“And now you are broken up? You have been here less than two weeks and you are broken up? You went from living together to breaking up and you seeing Paul fucking LaHote?”

“Don’t curse him Dad. You don’t know shit about him!” Bella said to me loudly. Where the hell did that come from? I was getting mad. I didn’t want to but I couldn’t hold back.

“I know all about him Bella. I know a lot more than you do. He didn’t take long to get you to sleep with him. That should show you how he is. I can’t believe you did that!”

“What did you say?” Bella asked me in a low voice.

“I said it didn’t take long for you to be throwing yourself at him. Is that who you are? I would have expected your mother to act like that. Not you! Is that what you want to be? You want to be your mother?”

Okay judging by the look of fury on her face, I may have stepped a little out of bounds. Dammit!

“Charlie, the worst mistake my mother ever made was marrying a small town cop who was too scared of the real world to take her somewhere she could have a life. She had to do it for herself. Now it looks like I will have to as well. Goodbye Charlie. Don’t come looking for me. Don’t come trying to find me or talk to me. And so help me God if you try to do anything to Paul you will fucking regret it.”

She said that so quietly while she was looking me in the eyes, I wouldn’t have believed it was Bella. She was a different person. What happened? Why did I say that? Why is she acting like this? Is what she said true? I heard the door open but I could tear my eyes away from Bella. She was looking at me with something close to hate. It was only when I heard his voice that I turned. Paul LaHote was standing in my living room.

“Baby, what do you want me to do?”

Without looking at him, her eyes continued to be locked on mine, she told him “My bags are packed upstairs already. Please go grab them from my room, and take me to Emily and Sam’s. I have to get ready for tonight.”

Without a word he nodded his head and moved upstairs. I wanted to shoot him. I wanted to curse at him. But I was speechless. What was he doing here? He already… did that with her. Like Paul LaHote was going to spend the night with a girl and not… anyway he got what he wanted. He should be gone now.

I saw him walk down with her bags. He took them outside.

“Take care of yourself Charlie.” Bella told me still looking me in the eye.

And she was gone.

Oh my God. What did the two of us just do? We had never had a fight like that. I need to call Sue. I was so confused. I think I just lost my daughter. And I was damned if I knew what to do to fix it. She was fine before Paul got his hooks into her. This is his fault. And my fault. I looked around and realized I was alone. Really alone. And for the first time in my life it scared the hell out of me.

BPOV

“You okay?” Paul asked me.

“Whose car is this?”

“Uhh, I borrowed Sam’s to bring you home remember?”

“Oh right…”

“Bella?”

“What Paul?”

“You’re not okay.” He didn’t need an imprint to tell him that I guess.

“No, but I will be. I can’t believe he said that about my mother. And about me…”

We pulled into Emily’s driveway. I felt a little better. I needed to focus on my future. But I had to do something first.

“Paul I need to make a call.”

“To who?”

“I think you know.” Paul did not look happy.

“We agreed to have no contact with them. With him. You know that Bella.” Paul was definitely frowning.

I sighed. I figured he wouldn’t be happy about this. But it had to be done.

“Paul, you won. You got me. Okay? I admit that I love you! I admit that I love you more than anyone that I have ever loved in my life. I admit that even though I haven’t known you that long that I can’t imagine ever feeling this way about another person. You won. But I am not going to give myself to you without letting Matt know first. He deserves to know. I know I promised him to spend time with him without you and Leah around when he got back. But I can’t do that! I can’t be away from you. I can’t be away from you…” I realized I was crying. Too much emotion for me today I guess.

“You love me?” He said so quietly I almost wouldn’t have heard him.

“Yes, okay. I love you. I love your personality and your strength and your smile and how much you have gone through and to still be standing. I love who you are and who I see you becoming. Who we could be together. I love you okay?”

“I love you too Bella. I know why I imprinted on you. You are… there are no words for what you are too me. I never would have been complete without you. And if it took an imprint to show me the way and get us there quicker I will be thankful for being a wolf every day.”

I had to laugh. I wiped tears from my eyes. “You better be happy and thank your spirits.” I said smiling at him. “You got lucky with me.” I told him grinning. “I guess I got lucky too.”

“But Paul, I have to call Matt.”

“I know. If it means I don’t have to worry about you spending time with him I guess I can stand it.”

“You better be able to do a lot more than stand it. Matt and I will always be friends. He will be a part of this pack as much as I am. You two are going to have to learn to get along. And I will have to learn to get along with Leah. Matt is not going anywhere Paul. You know this.”

Paul sighed. I expected an angry or a sarcastic remark. Instead he just nodded his head. “I will be inside. Make your call Bella. Hell, I guess if Leah is cool with it call him as much as you want. I know you are mine.” He grinned at me.

“Not until tonight.” I told him.

He moved my hair of my cheek causing me to shiver when his hand touched my cheek.

“You’ve always been mine Bella. Just like I have always been yours.” He kissed me on the forehead and walked inside. I pulled my cell and looked at my contacts. I took a deep breath and pressed the dial button.

Matt POV

We were holding hands in an inner tube for two. My parents were floating ahead of us. Leah had never been tubing. We had hit some rapids and listening to her laugh made me happy. I had woken up this morning and lost my breath when I saw her dressed for church. She was radiant. I had never seen her in a dress. And knowing she wasn’t wearing anything under it was making it hard to keep my thoughts on church related subjects. I held her hand the entire time and enjoyed the warmth that flooded my body. I had nearly taken her against a truck last night. Not very romantic. I had promised her tonight to take her camping. Tonight we would stop fighting the pull. I was going to get lost in her. But before I did, I had a call to make.

“What are you thinking about Matt?”

“Tonight.”

“Oh yeah? So where are you planning to take me?” She said smiling.

“To a favorite camping spot I went to when I wanted to get away from everybody. That’s all I’m telling you.”

“Fine. I like to be surprised. Are you, what you said last night, are you really… or were you just drunk?” She said with a half-smile that let me know she really wanted to know but wanted to seem casual.

“I love you Leah. And I meant what I said.”

“You love me?”

“Hopelessly.” I told her truthfully. From the moment I saw her I knew. I didn’t want to admit it. I kept waiting for her to do or say something that told me she wasn’t what I thought she was but nothing. I fell deeper in love with her every day, every moment I was with her.

“I love you too.” She whispered.

“I know.”

“So you understand?”

“Understand what? The imprint? I could give a damn about that. I would have fallen for you regardless. I admit things probably wouldn’t have moved this fast but…”

“No I mean you understand you are mine? Once I take you, once you let me take you there will be no turning back regardless. You will be mine and I will never let you go.”

I smiled at her. “Of course I understand.” Honestly when she talked like that too me it kinda got me excited.

“Then you can’t spend three weeks with Bella without me when we get back. I couldn’t take it.”

“I know.” I knew from the moment I held her hand on the plane there was no turning back.

“But I promised her. So I have to call her and let her know that I am breaking my promise. I have to do it before we take that next step.”

“I understand. I know. I never thought you would do anything different.”

“Leah you and Bella are going to have to make some sort of peace you know? She is still going to be my friend. And if we are both going to be around each other then…”

“I know. I have thought of this. I’m not sure if she will want to be my friend but I will try for you.”

We got out of the river a few miles down and took the bus back to the car lot.

We didn’t talk much on the way home. Now much needed to be said. While Leah was taking a shower I heard my phone go off. Bella.

“Hi.”

BPOV

“Hey Matt. How’s it uh going?”

“Good, how about you?”

I took a deep breath. May as well get to the point.

“Matt I can’t do it anymore. I can’t fight it. I can’t… I just can’t.” Please understand Matt.

“I know Bella.” What?

“What do you mean you know? Is it the same for you?”

He sighed. “Yes it is.”

Oh. That certainly makes things easier, I suppose.

“So we both agree?”

“Yes.”

“I don’t want to lose you from my life Matt. I know this is horrible to ask but can we still be friends? I mean real friends, not the friends that exes say they are going to be but then never are.” Please say yes. I’m selfish. I don’t care.

“Bella we will always be friends. Best friends. But you know this is what we both want.”

I felt sadness and relief. I think relief was bigger than sadness. I’m not sure.

“Thank you Matt. I have to go. When are you and Leah coming back?”

“Probably a few days. I guess since everything is settled I should bring her home and we can all start being friends.”

I laughed. That was Matt. Roll with the punches.

“Bella?”

“Yes?”

“Paul is still a prick.”

I had to laugh. He didn’t sound angry when he said it.

“Yeah and Leah is bitch.” I laughed at him. Asshole.

“Yeah but they are ours aren’t they?”

“Yes they are.”