Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

A Fresh Start

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 22:

Esme POV
I couldn’t believe I was doing this. But I missed this so bad. The feel of a body on top of mine. The feel of a hand rubbing and squeezing my breast. The feel of a tongue deep in my pussy and a finger rubbing my clit, making me take deep breaths that I desperately needed.

“Did you miss me?”

“Shut up. I want your cock and I want it now. That’s all I want from
you. Give it to me.”

“Is that all? What about my tongue?”

“Do anything you want with it except talk.”

His fingers parted me. They didn’t need to. I was so wet. I was on
fire. I reached my hand to his waist and grab his cock. It was
throbbing in my hand and felt like it was about to burst. I guided it to my entrance and he push hard. I screamed. It wasn’t in pain. My
body immediately went out of control. My vampire body that I always had perfect control over was trembling and I couldn’t stop it. My legs felt weak. I gave up trying to wrap them around his beautiful ass and let my feet hit my mattress. Leaving my legs spread wide for him, on my back, lying and trembling. He laid on top of me. I could feel his breath in my hair. Feel his chest pressing my breasts down. Sliding back and forth. Even without sweat the electricity from our combined bodies was driving me wild.

I felt a rush in my head. It sounded like a train coming towards me. The burn that stared at my pussy was rising into my belly all the way to my breast. He started moving at inhuman speeds. My bed broke from under us and I barely noticed the short drop to the ground. He just fucked me harder. That was what he was doing. Fucking me. No gentleness. Fuck gentleness. He was hammering my pussy and my breaths couldn’t keep up. Every one brought more of his animal scent and drove me closer to the brink. I exploded in orgasm, and bit down on his shoulder, my hands in a death grip in his hair. I finally came down and my body stopped trembling. I was only slightly shaking.

His body left mine but his cock never came out of me. My eyes were closed. I didn’t want to open them. He leaned up and I felt my ass lifted from the bed and placed on what felt like his knees. His hands were on my breasts again teasing my nipples. He started moving again, in an about, slowly this time. My ass was raised on his knees and my back was pressed to the mattress by his hands on my breasts. I realized from the warm liquid slowly moving across my skin to the bottom of my ass that he had cum as well.

“What are you doing? Haven’t you had enough? You got what you
wanted.”

“I waited for this for too long. You told me to stop talking. Shut up
Esme. I’m not done with you by a long shot. I never will be.”

His fingers pinched my clit and I moaned. I couldn’t help myself. I
slowly opened my eyes and saw he had lifted the legs I could barely feel anymore against his shoulders. One hand was under my ass and the other was on top of my pussy rubbing my mound while he slowly fucked me. I looked at his gorgeous abs flexing. The muscles in his chest tensing every time his hand ran up and down, between my spread legs. I was completely in his power and didn’t give a damn.

I wanted to be strong. I wanted to be in control. But he squeezed my clit again at the same time his cock hit the spot inside that had been neglected to long. I was knocked out by a wave of pleasure.
It must have been hours that he fucked me like this. I barely noticed the sun shine trying to break through the blinds. Every so often he would bring me to orgasm, whenever he wanted to. I felt him come three more times. Every time he came he pressed underneath my belly button, almost like he was making sure it stayed in me. Squeezing me. Making me burst with the pleasure that seemingly had taken root in my body and wouldn’t let go. We came together the last time. I literally couldn’t move. I could barely open my eye. He finally stopped moving and I felt him leave me. I instantly wanted him back.

“Are you finally done with me?” I whispered, not looking him in the eyes.

“Never.”

He flipped me over like I was nothing but a toy in his hands. I
suppose I was. My cheek hit the mattress and I closed my eyes tight again. He raise my hips and my ass was in the air. He entered me from behind. The feeling of his pelvis slapping against my ass
seemed to send a small electrical current straight down my back. I
felt one of his hands slap my ass and the pain ignited my senses
making me feel the pleasure more deeply. His other hand slid
between my ass cheeks. I wanted to ask him what he was doing but all I could do was whisper while he slid in and out. I felt his thumb barely go inside my ass, just enough for me to know it was there. I had never been touched there before. I tensed somewhat but I couldn’t stop him now. I really, really wanted to be strong. And I really didn’t. The fingers of the hand whose thumb was currently pressing between my ass cheeks spread my lips wider for his cock. Then they found my clit again and I lost the ability to speak. His other hand brushed my hair away from my neck.

I knew what he was going to do. I could have told him to stop. He would have. Instead all I did was enjoy the seemingly constant orgasm he gave. I knew I was on my knees still but I couldn’t feel them.

His hand clenched. Fingers pressing on my pussy and thumb
pressing on my ass and I bit the mattress and came harder than I have in my existence. I felt him fill me up. Then his teeth. His teeth buried in the back of my neck. He could have killed me if he wanted. But I knew he wouldn’t. Instead his teeth broke my skin and I saw a bright light, even though my eyes were closed. My head finally cleared and he pulled out of me slowly and collapsed on his back next to me. I forced my eyes to stay open and crawled to his waist.

Taking his cock in my mouth I could taste the two of us mixed. I
continued to clean him. Soon he was hard again. I squeezed his
balls and he came again in my mouth. I swallowed ever bit of it. He
tasted like his scent. Wild. I wanted to keep going, ride him, but I saw the day had given way to night. If I kept going I doubt I would be very good. For the first time in my existence I felt like my body wouldn’t do what my mind commanded.

I suppose everyone has their limits.

I lay in the dark, aware of his body next to mine. I listened to the
deep breaths he was taking. I was doing the same. We were getting
his on the scent of our coupling.

I finally calmed down enough to think rationally.

“Garrett, we can’t keep doing this.”

He laughed of course.

“Of course we can. You honestly think we can stop now? Don’t lie to yourself Esme. It’s not attractive.”

“I’m still married to Carlisle.”

“You left him. Vampires pretty much have too many identities to be bound by things like marriage certificates. You left him, you became free. That means you are not married to Carlisle. Hence, I don’t see what the fucking problem is. Plus I’m sure he is going to smell that lovely little bite mark I left on the back of your neck. If I ever see him again I plan to make sure he smells the one on my shoulder. And the one from last week on my ribs. What about the one on the side of my neck? Think he night notice that?”

“I… love Carlisle. I only left him to keep Bella…”

“Safe. Yes. You left him over a human. You were angry at him
before. He let Edward Cullen run your family. It was only a matter of time before you left Esme. I know you love your human but she
honestly gave you the perfect chance to leave.”

“That’s not true. I do love her. That’s why I did what I did.”

“Yes. You love her. You loved her more than our husband. You could have asked him to make Edward leave. Gone to him and kept the news of your precious Isabella’s life to yourself. He never would have let you near the Volturi. But you didn’t. You left him behind. Didn’t you say right after you found out about Bella you called and left him not five minutes later? It must have been a difficult decision, taking a whole five minutes to make.”

“Fuck you Garrett.”
“Go to hell Esme. You know I am right. You wanted me the first time we saw each other 53 years ago. You remember that day right? Of course you do. Do you know what I saw the first time I looked into your eyes?”

“A woman you wanted to fuck?” I asked lightly laughing.

“Yes. But I also saw a woman who was trapped. A sexy as hell
vampire who was dressed like an old fucking lady, playing mommy to Carlisle’s pretend family. All so he could be a fucking doctor. That wasn’t you Esme. You are a fighter. You are emotional. You are not a fucking mother to that pack of vampire wannabes. You are a damn sexy vampire who has needs of your own. You let him turn you into a fucking Stepford wife. Don’t be angry at me that I reminded you of what you are.”

“We use each other to satisfy our mutual needs.”

“We love each other and you’re too much of a stubborn bitch to
admit it. You finally broke free of Carlisle and became what you are meant to be. Now if you could find the guts to take the next step and be with who you are supposed to be with, you could be happy.”

“What makes you think I am not happy? I have Bella. I don’t have to deal with Edward or any of those brats any longer.”

“You never had to deal with those brats. Your Bella doesn’t need a
mother either. You need a friend who doesn’t give a damn about the Cullens. That’s what she is. She is your friend. Probably your best friend. Just because you let yourself be brainwashed by Doctor Cullen into mothering everyone doesn’t mean that everyone you meet needs a mother. You can love her without needing any reason.”

“Shut up Garrett.” I hated these discussions. He sees me once every ten years, driving me crazy with the way he looks at me. The one time he finds me without Carlisle, I have to have him and now he is like a fucking addiction. An addiction that psychoanalyzes me.

“Whatever Esme. You are mine. You’ve never once been fucked by
that pussy ex husband the way I have been fucking you the past two weeks. Do you know why? Because we fuck like vampires. He fucks like a vampire trying to pretend to be human. I’m going to hunt. Want to come?”

“I’m not feeding on humans, Garrett. No matter how much of a
vampire you think I am or am not.”

“Fine. I will be back…”

“Don’t come back.”

“Whatever. You have my cell. Call me when you want me. I have a
few new positions I bet you have never been in. I can practically
guarantee it. I will probably have enough time to get a shower before you call me over.”

He leaned over and kissed me. I opened my mouth and let him in.

“I love you, Esme.”

“I hate you, Garrett.”

“Of course you do baby. Of course you do. See you in a few hours. I
will wait for your call.”

A few hours? I would show him.

I could probably hold out for six hours. Damn him.

I stood up slowly, making sure my legs would still work. Walking to the shower, I relaxed, feeling the water run through my hair. Then I turned on the bath and sat, pulling my knees up to my chest. My body was still tingling and the sensation of the water rising around my skin was driving me crazy. Soon the tingles would be gone and I would need more. Six hours. Maybe five. I ran my hand to the back of my neck and traced the bite mark with my fingers. It would always be a sensitive spot. I let him claim me. I never let Carlisle sink his teeth in me.

He asked and I turned him down.

That was the problem.

He asked. You can’t ask to claim someone. I claimed Garrett first. I
didn’t ask. I knew. Garrett claimed me and never asked. He knew as
well.

I was so fucked.

Bella POV

It was 9 PM and Bo and I had just settled into our cuddle positions
on the couch. Castle was coming on. I loved this show. Bo put up
with it to make me happy. I reached for the bowl of popcorn on the
end table when the doorbell rang.

“What is Esme doing here this late?” Bo asked.

“Why do you assume it’s Esme?”

“Do you know anyone else who knocks or rings the doorbell before
they come into our house?”

He had a fair point. Only unless we locked the door. But most of our friends had a key to the house or knew where we kept the spare.

I stood up, kicking the blanket we had over us to the side and walked to the door. Opening it I was immediately shocked.

Esme looked like hell. Her hair was all over the place. She was
wearing running shorts and a regular tee. She seemed to be
shaking? Yes. It wasn’t noticeable but she was shaking a bit.

“What’s wrong?” I asked.

“I’m sorry for bothering you so late. I know you watch Castle every
Monday at this time. I just needed to… talk?”

“Get in here, girl. You know I always have time for you.”

She walked into the living room and Bo smiled.

“Evening Esme.”

“Bo. Uh… could you start making me a new bed tomorrow? Mine
broke.”

“Again? That bed was a week old. I need to check my wood. It must
be the problem.”

“No! I mean… It’s not the wood. I picked it up to vacuum underneath it and dropped it without thinking. I’m sorry. If it’s a problem…”

“No. Of course not Esme. But I am beginning to think that you are
breaking them on purpose to give us business. We are doing well,
Esme. You don’t have to break your furniture so you can buy new
furniture.” Bo smiled. I was beginning to think the same thing. She
also broke a coffee table last week. Apparently she has problems
remembering not to drop furniture when she vacuums.

“I’m not Bo. I’m really not. But could you maybe put extra supports
under the frame and maybe double up the legs. In case I… drop it
again.”

“Okay. Or you could just remember not to drop it.” Bo laughed. “I
would think you were a crazy sleeper if I didn’t know you couldn’t
sleep.”

Esme laughed lightly but the smile didn’t touch her eyes.

“Bella could we talk? Bo, I need to talk to Bell… I’m sorry, Mary,
alone. Girl things, you understand? If it’s a bad time I can come
back…”

Esme never forgets to call me Mary. If she did, something is very
wrong. I looked at Bo with the look that said get out of here. He
nodded.

“It’s never a bad time Esme. I’m gonna go get some wood ready for
tomorrow so I can get started on your bed in the morning. Ya’ll take as much time as you need.” Bo stood up with a smile and walked out. I could tell he was a little worried. We both were.

As soon as he walked out I turned to Esme.

“Sit down and tell me what’s wrong.”

She seemed calm when she began talking. By the end there was so
much venom in her eyes I could barely make out her gold Irises.

“Holy shit.” I whispered.

“Yes. I don’t know what to do Mary. What am I supposed to do?”

“What do you want to do?” I asked her.

“I planned to go back to Carlisle after you… uh…”

“Died?”

“Yes. Sorry.”

“It’s cool Esme. I do know I will die one day. Death and taxes. Kind of a fact of life, you know?”

“I know. I planned to go to Carlisle and explain. But…”

“I didn’t ask what you were going to do. What do you want to do?”

“Honestly?”

“That’s why you came to me, right?”

“I want to grab Garrett and never let go.” She whispered.

“So that’s what you need to do.” I told her.

“That’s it? Just grab him and forget about everything else. 80 years
of marriage?”

“It could be a thousand years of marriage. I see hot guys all the time. Every guy in the wolf pack in La Push is gorgeous. You don’t like werewolves and even you have to admit those boys are hot.”

“Yes. They have a certain appeal.” She admitted.

“Since I have had Bo, I never once looked at any of them or any
other man and felt the slightest bit of attraction. I recognize they are good looking men. But not once did I ever think about one of them touching me. The idea is very disturbing to me. I have a very normal sex drive…”

“Abnormal you might say. I mean I can’t imagine how your human
body takes as much sex as you put it through.”

“Off point Esme. Despite having a normal sex drive, I love Bo so
completely the idea of someone else touching me makes me ill. You have been fantasizing about this guy for 50 years. He never even touched you until two weeks ago. Now you can’t get enough of him. Have you ever felt that way about Carlisle?”

“I don’t know.”

“You don’t know? How can you say you don’t know? What you just
described with this Garrett guy sounds pretty recognizable. I would think you would know. If you don’t know that means no.”

“I love Carlisle. He is sweet and caring and…”

“Puppies are sweet and caring.” I pointed out.

“I know.” She sighed.

“Esme, I had to survive vampire attacks and kidnappings and head
injuries and losing most of the memories of my life to finally find my soul mate and it was all worth it. I would do it again. You have it easier. This guy visits Carlisle, probably to see you, finds out you left, calls Jasper, finds out where you are and flies across the Atlantic Ocean to see you the next day. He didn’t waste time worrying about anything besides getting to you. You let him bite you for God’s sake.”

“Yes I did.” She said quietly.

“I agree with him about me also. I don’t need a mother. I have one
and she is more than a handful. I love you because I love you. I see
a beautiful woman who has the world at her feet and hangs out with me because I know she loves me too. I see a dear friend. A big sister I always wanted. I don’t need a mother and you don’t need another teenage kid. You need to live and enjoy your life. Do you love him?”

“I don’t… I can’t love him. We have only been having sex for two
weeks.”

“Bullshit. I knew the moment I woke up on the side of the road that I was 18, I didn’t know my name and I was crazy in love with the guy kneeling over me. I bet you realized it the first time you saw him 50 years ago.”

“So you think I should throw away my marriage over a guy I may
love or may just be attracted to?”

“Esme, if Carlisle hadn’t turned you… if he was just a guy you met
and had a normal dating relationship with, would you have married him?”

“That’s a tough question Mary. My first husband was a real bastard. He was abusive. He… I probably would have married a guy like Carlisle just to get away.”

“Esme you gave up your husband over me, right?”

“Yes.”

“You know I love you right?”

“Yes.”

“I would never give Bo up over anyone. Not even you, as much as I
love you.”

“I know. That’s the way it should be. That’s the way love is.”

“So maybe you should give yourself a shot at love.”

“He feeds from humans, Mary.”

“I’m not saying bring him over to my place for dinner. But he is a
vampire, Esme. I’ve heard they do that sometimes.”

She took a deep breath.

“So I shouldn’t feel guilty?”

“You don’t feel guilty. You left Carlisle. You only feel guilty that you don’t feel guilty.”

Esme laughed.

“As stupid as that sounded, it made sense. Thanks for the talk Mary.”

She stood up.

“Whoa. Where are you going?”

“I think I am going to call Garrett.”

“Sit your ass down girl. Bo can stay outside a little longer. You are
going to tell me what it’s like to have sex for 24 hours straight and to have an orgasm when a man bites you.”

“Fine. But first has Bo ever put his thumb… uh…”

“What?” This had to be good if she was embarrassed already.

She leaned over and whispered in my ear. Whoa.

“No he hasn’t. But you can bet your cute ass he is going to now.”

Bo POV

The day I have been waiting for. The day the werewolves of La Push descend onto Tyler Texas. I can feel the awkwardness in the air already. Leah had a boyfriend now. She was dating a friend of mine named Travis. She actually found a guy taller than her. Mary
believes Emily is very happy about this since Sam was engaged to
Leah before he informed on Emily. Not informed. What was the
word? Imprinted? Yeah, imprinted. But Mary also believes that
although they are not together anymore Sam may be tense around
Leah with her new boyfriend. Mary is worried this may upset Emily if she sees Sam acting jealous. I honestly don’t know what the fuck is wrong with these people.

Then Sue purposely made sure that Mary did not walk down the
aisle with Jacob and instead walk with me which apparently has
pissed Jacob off to no end. Jacob would have to walk with Leah.

Mary made me promise not to start shit with Jacob.

I told her I would just be making friendly conversation to avoid any uncomfortable silences.

They were coming to Charlie’s house at any minute.

“Bo, you are going to be good aren’t you?” Mary asked, walking up
behind me and grabbing my hand.

“What am I? A kid? Am I going to be good?”

“Yes. You are going to be a good boy, right?”

Pat me on the fucking head, why don’t you?

“Yes Mary. I will be a good boy.”

She smiled at me and walked back inside. Then I heard the caravan of vehicles heading straight for us.

The giants had arrived.

I smiled and shook hands.

They smiled back.

Not awkward at all.

They went in to say hello and I saw Jake try to hug Mary and she
shook his hand instead. Ha. Fucker. I walked outside.

And there he was walking behind me. I’m beginning to think he has a thing for me.

“How you been Bo?”

“Life couldn’t be better Jake. Have you looked at the right girl yet?”

“Very funny.”

“I take that as a no.” I said quietly.

“So Jake, what have you been up to?” May as well make casual
conversation.

“Saving the world from evil vampires. You? Still building furniture?”

“Yeah, building furniture and making love to Mary three times a day. Lately she has had me doing this thing with my thumb… you know what? You don’t need to know about that. I have to say though, life doesn’t get much better. We are talking about kids. Maybe we will name one Jacob. Probably not though. I know. We could buy a puppy and name him Jacob. Course he would have to be an outside dog. Unlike Charlie we don’t allow dogs in the house.”

“You are going to actually use Bella to make more of you? Seems
like a cruel thing to do to her and the world.”

“Maybe. Better than having a litter of puppies like you wanted to
have with her.”

“Go to Hell, Bo. Please go fucking burn in Hell.”

“Listen you overgrown child. This is what we are going to do to make MARY happy, Jacob. We are going to smile at each other. Make small talk about twice a day. Not longer than a minute. I’m going to make love to her every chance I get, so you have to smell it with that bloodhound nose of yours. You are going to call her Bella every five minutes, because every time you do it, she hates you a little more. You got all that? See you inside kid.” I patted him on the back and left him growling on the front porch.

Mary walked up and kissed me. I turned and saw Paul staring. Rachel was right next to him and noticed him staring. Nope. No awkwardness this weekend.

Smooth sailing.