Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Sins Of The Past

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 14:

Dani POV

I emerged from my dark hiding spot, no longer able to resist the smell of bacon and eggs. I hadn’t slept. I didn’t care. I walked to the bathroom and saw I looked like hell. My eyes looked old and my hair was wild. Again I didn’t care. I turned to walk out when I caught it. Staring back at the mirror my poor hygiene was not my only change. I had gotten taller. My breasts were larger, my legs longer and I swore I had muscles in my arms. Real muscles. My abs felt tighter as well. No wonder these clothes Angela gave me didn’t fit worth a damn. I had thought we were the same size. Apparently I wasn’t anymore.

I looked older. I could pass for twenty one easily.

I was… no. I was still me. Right?

No I wasn’t.

I hated the way I looked. This wasn’t me.

Walking into the kitchen without a word I grabbed a full plate of bacon and walked back to the guest room, ignoring my so called brother and his clone of my mother.

“Dani? Sam wanted to know when you would be ready to learn the patrol routes? Start training? Learning to fight?”

I stopped at Jacob’s question and returned to the kitchen.

“I won’t be patrolling or learning anything about fighting brother. I suppose that bastard you call a father can make me. But he is going to have to control me every step of the way. I won’t patrol. He can make me fight but he can’t make me fight well. He will have to control my body. I realize he can make me come to him but I doubt he can direct me in a fight while fighting himself.”

I laughed at Jacob’s surprised look.

“Don’t look so surprised. I haven’t been pouting in the dark. I have been thinking. Mainly about two things. Dying and killing your father. What about you Jake? Where are you on what he did to my mother? The woman who was your best friend? The one who never would give you what you wanted.”

Jacob’s face hardened.

“We are preparing for the fight of our lives. I am disgusted by what my father did but it is your mother who is leading an army to bring and destroy every member of my tribe. Destroy my home. I hate my father for what he did but I will not roll over and die. We will deal with him after the battle. Right now we have to be ready.”

“After the battle? There won’t be an after. Don’t you get it? She doesn’t lose! She never has. Your father turned her into someone you don’t know and don’t understand. I saw her get shot twice! Her leg was pouring blood. I could see inside her rib cage. Despite this she ran after the car and killed both of them. Who does that Jacob? Most people that get shot I would imagine fall on the ground and die. She ran on a broken leg after the car and killed them both. You can’t beat her. You are dead! If you had any sense you would be evacuating this tribe. Having them run. Instead you sit here and talk about patrol schedules?! What are you patrolling for? It will be obvious by the screams of your beloved tribe when she arrives.”

“You underestimate us. The Pack has never been this large, Dani.”

“Twenty two? That’s what you got? Most of them between the ages of 13 and 16. Are you out of your mind? She killed two of your already and I have a feeling she is a lot deadlier now. She knows everything about your pack. You won’t survive” This was my brother? What a fucking idiot!

“Dani…” Angela started.

“He still wants her. It’s why he makes you look like a clone of her in high school. Doesn’t that bother you? Do you have any self-respect at all?” I asked his wife standing by the stove.

“Angela…”Jacob turned towards her.

“He wants me too. He may deny it but he only wants to protect me from my father fucking me, so he can have first shot.”

“That is not true!”

“Then why were you staring at me getting dressed? Why Jake? I saw into every one of your heads. I heard the thoughts. A bunch of fucking dogs. How does that make you feel Angela? He wants to fuck his own 16 year old sister. If you two ever have children pray that they are boys. Like father like son Jake. Right?”

He said nothing. He was angry. He was shaking. Good. Let him phase. I may not be able to hurt Billy but I could bite his fucking nuts off.

“I’ll go ahead and cut the suspense. Of course you probably already know this since you have been in my head. I’m not her. I sure as hell am not a virgin. You don’t get to be first you sick fuck. Have you talked to our other brother? Embry? Had any touching moments where you too patted each other on the back? He wanted her too. He knew your father was going to hurt her. Don’t you understand? All of you deserve to die. There are no heroes here Jake. None. Not me, not you and sure as fuck not your father. I’ll be eating this bacon in the guest room. Leave me the fuck alone.”

I actually enjoyed an hour of peace. Until I felt compelled to come out of the room. My feet moved of their own accord. I knew what this meant.

“Hello daughter. I hear you are being quite stubborn about not taking your Pack duties seriously.”

Doing my best to hide the fear in my heart, I answered him calmly.

“The only duties I am interested in is making sure you and this Pack are destroyed.”

“All of them? What did Luke Clearwater ever do to you? Bryan Windsong? Jacob Uley? Damon Atearra? What did these young men do to you?”

“Fuck you. I will see you dead. The only reason I haven’t killed myself is because I want to get my hands on you. Or at least watch my mother get her hands on you.”

“Your mother is an undead whore. She is dead! I think it’s time you began showing respect. I don’t feel like controlling you constantly around the borders of La Push. If you don’t want to fight, it’s your funeral. However it is time you learned exactly who you belong to.”

Stay strong Dani.

“Fuck me then you sick bastard if you can even get it up. It’s just another nail in your coffin.”

“Don’t flatter yourself. I may take you one day but I have bigger things to deal with at this time. I have good news. Your grandmother is coming to claim you. Sam Uley will have her here this afternoon around 4. He is at the airport waiting on her as we speak.”

Oh God no.

“You are going to kill my grandmother?” I whispered.

“No. You are. Embry will be here shortly to collect you. He has my father’s shotgun. The two of you will work on your shooting skills. When you see her this afternoon you will murder her. Shoot her in the head. That’s an order by the way.”

The fucker winked at me.

“I…”

“Don’t you wish you had just gone patrolling? I bet your undead mother will be very excited to learn you killed your grandmother. Have a great day. Watch the safety. It’s a bit tricky. I would let you do it as a wolf but wolves are protectors of humans, not killers. That would be your mother’s kind.”

“I’ll do anything. Please don’t do this. She has nothing to do with this. I’ll do anything. You won’t have to order me. Just please. Send her away. You want me to beg you? I will beg you. She has never hurt anyone. Leave her alone. Fuck me if it’s that important to you. Don’t do this. Please if you have any soul… she has never hurt anyone!”

I wanted to scream. Instead I was quietly pleading.

“You need to learn to kill. It’s an important skill to learn. Besides she is a pale face. She is not one of us so she doesn’t matter. It’s time you learned that my precious daughter. Have fun today and remember, Daddy loves you.”

Bella POV

I felt amazing. I had no pain for the first time in my existence. My back muscles felt strong. I had no desire for a drink, only blood. For the first time in my life I was able to make love to Jane with neither of us worried about being careful. There was no need anymore. Nothing between the two of us. My life had been a nightmare. Master Aro never knew how many times, were it not for giving him my word to serve the Volturi, I would have killed myself over the years.

How many times had I stood in the bathroom, looking over my shoulder at the mirror? Feeling broken. Filthy. The panic attacks at the slightest sound or smell. Anything that could potentially take me back to where I was born.

Now I was lying in a castle with the woman I loved laid across my body. She had the body of a girl but she was a woman. Over a thousand years old. A beautiful Goddess of pain and she loved me. I was hers and she was mine and together we were unstoppable. We would protect our family. We would destroy the world to protect them.

As much as I didn’t want to, I had to leave this bed. I had to get dressed and talk to the Masters. I needed their knowledge. I needed to know how to kill wolves.

Also I was very hungry.

“Bella? Can I ask you some questions?”

“Jane you never have to ask that.” I frowned.

“Yes but… these are questions about your past.”

I chuckled.

“Why bother? The only part of my past that matters will soon be erased. But ask away Jane.”

“What exactly do you remember of your life?”

What did I remember?

“I remember being born.” I told her honestly.

“Being born? Bella no one remembers being born.” She laughed.

“I do. I was born in pain. My face was in the dirt. I remember pain and blood and more pain. The dirt was soggy. It rained all the time but the trees never really allowed sand. More like a mossy brown. Thick soil. Everything else was green where I was born. It was La Push.”

“Bella do you remember anything else? Before you were born?” Jane asked sounding worried.

“No. Does anything else matter? I ran. I ran and ran. My truck wouldn’t go any faster. I had to stop for gas so many times I was afraid I would run out of money. I was delirious by the time I reached Florida. I got lost. I called my mother. I was able to tell her what I was around but I couldn’t understand her directions. I hadn’t eaten. Master Aro told me you were there. Watching over me. Even then. You were there at the beginning of my life.”

“Yes Bella.”

“My mother came to get me. I was afraid of a hospital. I was afraid of police. If that happened it would become more real. I knew that nothing could stop him. Police would be killed. Who would believe me? Who would believe me Jane? Who would believe that I was attacked by a werewolf? I was raped by a werewolf.

My mother believed me. She thought I was delirious at first but when my wounds were better, I talked to her. I told her everything. I begged her to believe me. To understand I wasn’t crazy. She did. She believed me. A nurse came. Her name was Danielle. Danielle Spencer. She hurt me. She had to. I would have died if she had not. Even from birth those who saved me caused me pain. That’s what I am. I am pain. Just like you, love. We are pain.”

I sighed. The memories of my life were not pleasant. But I carried on.

“I decided there was too much pain. I didn’t… I couldn’t handle it. I wasn’t strong enough to live in pain. I didn’t know how. One night I took a walk on the beach with a razor. It belonged to my mother’s husband. I don’t think he was my father. I’m not sure who my father was. You would think he would have been there when I was born but I don’t think he was.

I found a spot. The sun was perfect. It had reached the perfect spot in the sky. It was twilight. My life had been a nightmare but I wanted my death to be beautiful. I sat in the sand and took a last look at the sun setting over the ocean.

Then Master Aro saved me. He gave me life back. He made me stronger. He gave me a family. Master Marcus taught me how to live with pain. Master Caius taught me not to be weak. Chelsea taught me it was not my fault that I was born in pain.

You. I saw the same pain in your eyes that I saw in mine when I looked in the mirror. I fell in love with you. You taught me what love was. I remember the night in our chambers when you told me you loved me. You were so scared. I had never seen you scared before. Neither of us had been in love before. I told you I loved you and we both moved so slowly, our lips meeting. You put your head in your hands and I thought I did something wrong. Then I saw the tears pooling in your beautiful eyes. You were happy. I knew right then I would love you forever.

I learned about my family. Alec made me laugh. All my brothers did. My mothers hugged me. All of them. Renee, Athenodora, and Sulpicia. They held me.

I became a cop. I wanted to be strong like my family so I went to the most dangerous place I could find and became a cop. I had a good life. Still the pain was there. But I was happy I think. Not happy but satisfied. It would do. I was waiting. For some reason we waited. I knew though. I knew my destiny was here. I gave Master Aro my word. I wouldn’t kill myself. I would serve him for eternity. I wanted to. He was my true father. I would kill the world for him.

But I went back to where I was born. I wanted revenge. I don’t think I wanted to go back. But I did for some reason. I went back to where I was born. I couldn’t stop them. I tried. I wanted to kill them all but… they got me. Somehow they surprised me and you saved me. Once again, you saved me. Now I am immortal. I cannot hurt. I am free of pain and I plan to stay this way. I have to finish the job I started. I have to go back. I need to clean the place I was born.”

“Bella, what do you remember about your daughter?” Jane asked quietly.

My daughter?

“I know you remember your daughter Dani? I know you do Bella. Tell me about her.”

Dani…

Flashes of memories went through my head.

A little girl. Tan skin. Beautiful smile.

A birthday party. The cake had four candles. I bought her a diamond necklace. Why did I buy a little girl a diamond necklace?

I love you Mommy.

She whispered that to me. She met Mickey Mouse at Disney Land and then told me she loved me. Why did she love me? It was obvious she was one of them. Why call me Mommy? I was no mother. Mothers weren’t pain. Mothers were comfort.

Tears on her face.

She fell and skinned her knee. She had dirt on her face. I woke up and she was over me, dirt still on her face streaked by tears. She thought I died.

“Daughter?”

“Yes. Danielle. You call her Dani. You love her.”

There was a father daughter dance. I told her I would try to find someone to take her. Her friends were going. Maybe Renee… Renee had a husband didn’t she? I didn’t like being that close to a man. His voice… I couldn’t do it. I told her I was moving out. She left him. Yes she left him to come with me.

The little girl told me in my ear that she didn’t care if she went. I was enough. Then she kissed my cheek and said I was the best mommy in the world.

Why isn’t she here?

“She ran to him Jane. She went to him.”

“Bella we don’t believe she had a choice. Master Aro believes he can control the wolves. Completely. It’s why she ran. She turned into a wolf to protect you from me.”

“That’s ridiculous. You are mine. I don’t need protection from you!”

“She didn’t know that Bella.”

I lied to her. She asked me if I would always be her mommy. I knew I wouldn’t. When she was 18 I would leave. I was not a good mother. I lied and told her I would always be her mommy. Forever.

A nice lady at the grocery store told me my baby had the cutest nose. I laughed and thanked her.

It wasn’t my nose. It must have come from him. I followed her in the parking lot and hit the nice lady from behind. It was dark. Late. The parking lot light was out. No one saw us. Dani was in her stroller. I hit her over and over until she stopped begging me not to. When I was done a car pulled up beside us. My hands were covered in blood. I thought I would go to jail. Instead Afton took her and threw her in the trunk. She was gone, just like that. I went home and showered and then helped Dani eat. She must have been close to three? No… it wasn’t my nose.

“I don’t want her.”

“You do want her Bella. She is your daughter. No matter what he did, she is yours. We will get her back.”

“She is a fucking wolf! She is pain! I don’t want her!” I yelled. I never yelled at Jane. She didn’t seem to mind.

“We are getting her back. We won’t allow any harm to come to her.”

“His daughter. Not mine.”

She was 13. I was drunk on the couch. She yelled at me. I was too drunk to understand. I could barely speak.

“Why are you like this?!” the girl screamed. “Why won’t you stop?!” She was crying when she helped me to bed. I didn’t… no I couldn’t tell her. I couldn’t tell her why I was like that. She shouldn’t know.

She fucked a guy in my bed. My bed. Not hers. She didn’t even try to hide it. Almost dared me to say something when I walked in and found the used condom on my sheets.

I said nothing. She was his. What else would I expect?

“Jane my love? I have no daughter. I need to get dressed and met with our Masters. I need to prepare. Are you coming with me?”

She looked so sad.

“Of course love. I will go to Hell and anywhere else with you. Always.”

Hell?

No I was going to someplace worse. I was going to my birthplace.

Sam POV

Renee was angry. She sat in the back seat not saying a word. Jay looked so upset next to me. He didn’t want to come but he didn’t have a choice. He had been so quiet since that first night. When he saw inside the Pack mind. Billy’s mind.

I was so glad Emily got away with Will. I would never see her again. I understood. I was relieved Will was away from this nightmare. I only hoped Billy’s reach went so far.

I was also going insane. With the return of my wolf the pull of the imprint returned. I was tearing at the walls to get to her but we couldn’t leave the reservation.

Paul and Quil were slowly going insane. Claire had left for college earlier this year. Quil kept trying to reach her. She wouldn’t come regardless. No one but Emily knew her number and she wouldn’t come regardless. Emily proved that. We may need our imprints but our imprints can apparently survive without us.

Paul was drunk constantly. Drinking near 100% alcohol by the gallon. He had destroyed his house. He had no idea where Rachel could have gone. Billy was more interested in the daughter he had close than the two who got away.

This was my heritage. My legends. My birthright. To follow a mad man. Were all the Packs in the past like this? Or was it Billy? Billy and his sick, sick mind. Did something break when Sarah died?

No. He raped Embry’s mother before she died. He has always been like this. I noticed today that his hair no longer had streaks of grey. He had been coloring it. Now he was going to force his daughter to kill her grandmother.

“You killed my daughter Sam Uley.” Renee whispered from the backseat.

“Renee she is missing. We are doing everything we can to find Paul LaHote. There is a good chance she…”

“Shut up you fucking monster. You and Danielle. You both killed her. She was so good before she met your Pack Sam. She was whole and happy. You destroyed her. You destroyed her life and your tribe killed her.”

I didn’t bother to point out that Bella was anything but happy before she met the Pack. It was pointless. Renee was furious and worried. I looked in the mirror and saw tears in her eyes. I didn’t blame her.

Dani would never be the same. Every time I thought of turning around and driving away from La Push my chest hurt. He ordered me. He may not be near but the order held. I had to do what my Alpha commanded.

Looking at her now and listening to her voice I wondered if this wasn’t a mercy. Dani would be the real victim in this.

An hour of silence later and I pulled off on the road Billy directed me to. A mile down there was a dirt road that led off to a picnic ground in the trees. No one ever used it. Too much of a risk of bears. To out of the way. The only people who used it now were teenagers looking to make out.

Dani, Billy Black and Embry were standing there. Dani had a shotgun in her hands and tears streaking her face.

“Why are we here? Where are her bags? What the hell is going on?” Renee asked.

“Get out of the car.” I said loud enough to be heard. I looked over at Jay and saw he was crying. I had not seen my son cry in years.

Renee stepped out of the car and slowly walked to Dani. I stayed behind. I wanted to turn away but I couldn’t. I knew what was about to happen. I was under no compulsion not to turn away. I just couldn’t. I felt I had to witness this evil.

“Grandmother please run. Please. Run!” Dani yelled. Renee continued walking to her. Her heartbeat increased but she continued to walk towards her granddaughter holding a shot gun.

“Dani? What is going on? Why do you have that gun? Put it down immediately.”

“Please run!”

Dani POV

Oh God no. She wouldn’t run.

“Grandmother…” she always insisted on being called Grandmother. It started as a joke when I was little. I saw a movie where a little princess addressed her grandma as grandmother. I told her since we were royalty I should address her by her proper title. We both loved speaking in our fake British accents calling each other Grandmother and Granddaughter and having tea. The name stuck.

“Dani where are your bags? Put that damn gun down! Billy Black… you are standing? How the hell are you standing? Oh my God…”

I raised the shotgun but Grandmother was staring at Billy.

“It was you? You could always walk you fucking bastard.” She whispered.

“Dani, a moment. Do not pull that trigger just yet.” Billy instructed. My arms dropped.

“Yes Renee it was me. I raped your daughter. I raped that little fucking whore. You wouldn’t have had a daughter if my Pack hadn’t saved her. I understand you know the truth. Fine. You know she kissed a dead body? What kind of sickness is that? What did you raise? Tell me, in the past 16 years did Bella turn into as much of a whore as you are?”

“Billy, she is coming for you. She is coming for you. Soon you will be in her hands. You will curse your mother and father for giving birth to you.” Grandmother told him in the eeriest voice.

What the fuck?

“Bella is quite dead. Just as you are about to be. Don’t worry. This won’t hurt. Dani? Back away a few steps. You don’t want to get blood all over your face dearest daughter.”

Grandmother looked back at me. I stepped back and raised the shotgun. I didn’t want to. I was trying not to but my damn arms kept rising.

“Grandmother please run. Please? I’m so sorry. I love you. I’m so sorry I wasn’t better. I love you.”

I kept repeating I love you even as my finger pulled the trigger. I screamed and closed my eyes when the blast erupted.

I didn’t want to. I didn’t want to open my eyes. I just killed my grandmother. I had to see though. I had to see what I had done.

I opened my eyes slowly and saw… a police officer? It was Grandpa. I think. I had seen pictures of him at the house before he was shot. It was him…

“Charlie? What the hell?” Billy whispered.

Grandpa walked up to Billy.

“That was great. I know you can’t give me an opinion on the scent since you haven’t seen Renee in years but I stopped by and saw Charlie too. So honest opinion, is it exact? Take a whiff. Do I smell like Charlie Swan?”

“Y… yes.”

“Heartbeat? Pretty neat huh?” he asked. “What about the voice? I had to rely on an interview we found with him four years ago on the net for some local news station. Audio was horrible but am I close?”

Billy said nothing.

Then before my eyes a beautiful red headed pale female was there and the smell hit me. A vampire.

She was wearing a dark robe. Under it was a purple velvet dress that seemed out of place. Almost medieval.

“I have a message for you Billy Black.”

“Sam! Phase!

I looked at Sam and his son. They stood in shock. Then they shimmered.

Before they could phase Sam and his son no longer had heads.

Two vampires were behind them. The vampires ripped their heads off. I stood in shock, watching their bodies fall to the ground, kicking and jerking while blood spurted from their necks.

“Gifts are wonderful aren’t they?” the female asked Billy. “I can be anyone I wish. My friend Connor cannot be seen, heard or smelt. Nor can anyone with him. Think about that while you are on patrols. We will be around. Magnus… show him what you can do Magnus.”

The female jumped away to stand by the other vampires. A long dark haired vampire tossed his robe off and stepped forward. He clapped his hands and the shockwave knocked me to the ground. I lost my breath and began gulping air.

Billy and Embry were on the ground as well. Embry phased and then was struck by both the male vampires, his head driven into the ground.

Please God let them kill me.

The female walked up and stood over Billy.

“Now the message. Just a reminder really. You nor any of your wolves are to touch Danielle.” Billy tried to phase but she reached between his legs and oh my God.

Even over his screams I heard the soft pops. She ruptured his….

“I am not allowed to take these from you. That is Isabella’s right. But Master Aro wanted to make sure you couldn’t use them for the foreseeable future. How long do testicles take to regenerate? I suppose you will find out.”

The female looked at me with a smile. It wasn’t sadistic. I thought of phasing but didn’t. I fought it. Every instinct told me to fight but I wouldn’t. Here was my chance. She could kill me.

“Dani? I want you to phase after we leave and run back to the others. Let them see this. Give them the message. The message remains the same. You safely returned, unharmed and Billy Black in chains. If this does not happen we kill the tribe and take you anyway. Stay strong. Your mother has awoken and she is very, very pissed off as you would say.”

She looked down at Billy.

“We will be around Billy Black. Let your pack know we will be watching them on patrol. I may be sleeping in their beds with them, waiting for the moment to crush their testicles as I crushed yours. They will never see us. But we are around until the end of your tribe.”

The red headed female winked at me and disappeared. They all disappeared. I couldn’t smell any of them. Like that, they were gone.

Embry slowly stood up and walked over to Sam and his son. Their bodies had stopped twitching.

“Embry get over here! Help me.” Billy groaned.

I watched that fucker run to Daddy. A father he should hate but instead used to try and get what he wanted. My mother.

He knelt over Billy and I saw it next to me on the ground. I slowly picked it up. I suppose he couldn’t hear me over Billy’s moans. I may not be able to harm Billy but…

He heard when I chambered another round. He looked up and met my eyes, understanding dawning on him too late.

I pulled the trigger, keeping my eyes open this time. His head was gone. Sprayed everywhere. I tasted his blood in my mouth felt it on my face. Billy was covered with the remains of what used to be his head.

“What did you do?!” Billy yelled.

“What you wanted father. You wanted me to learn to kill. I did.”

I dropped the shotgun and phased, running towards La Push. It was close to dinner time and I was hungry.