Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Sins Of The Past

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 17:

Dani POV

Leah’s place was a dump. I mean it was a nice house but she was a slob. Empty liquor bottles all over the place. Clothes all over the floor. Mom would have killed me if…

Anyway I did find a bottle of alcohol in the fridge. Clear bottle, no label. I lit the last of my bud and took a drink out of the bottle.

Holy shit this was strong. This may work. Nothing else did.

Halfway through the bottle and my joint I realized it was working very well. Not well enough that I didn’t notice the letter on the coffee table that appeared seemingly out of nowhere. Leah had gone to have her pow wow with my soon to be dead father. Dumb bitch. I didn’t trust her but I really didn’t trust anyone so that was okay.

I picked up the letter and sniffed. Yep. A vampire wrote this. But no other vampire scents were in the air. I remembered the one who killed Uley…

Opening the letter I read.

Dearest Danielle,

I have a message for you. I am not hear to harm you but you know this. When I appear you will be struck with my scent and could perhaps phase. I ask that you do your best to resist this urge. It is important. Simply say yes if this is possible.

Huh. I turned the bottle up and downed the rest. Damn. This shit must be what those fuckers were drinking the night they destroyed my mother. I actually felt slightly drunk. I doubted it would last long but I was probably good.

“Yep. Appear before me oh sneaky vampire!” I couldn’t help laughing. This wasn’t funny.

Okay maybe a little.

My life was a tragedy. One time I paid attention in English class. Something about Shakespeare and the word comedy. I think it also meant tragedy. That was my life. May as well laugh about it.

“Glad to see you have retained your sense of humor.”

He appeared behind me. The smell permeated the room but I had no desire to phase. Could he kill me? Sure, whatever. Fuck it.

“Have a seat. Do you like my new place? It doesn’t come with a view of the Park but it has free alcohol.”

He chuckled. I guess he had a sense of humor as well.

“My name is Connor. You don’t know me but we have met.”

“I know. I saw you rip off Sam Uley’s head. Good job. A shame his kid got involved but that’s life huh? Believe me death is preferable to having someone else control your life.”

“That will end soon. Your life will be yours again. I promise. That was not what I meant though. I met you when you were born. I was in the room.”

“You were?” That was a surprise.

“Yes. Your mother was hemorrhaging after your birth. It was a difficult delivery. She nearly died. I was in the corner of the room watching the doctor work to save her. My instructions were simple. If it appeared she would not make it I was to slaughter the medical staff and bite your mother. Change her on the spot and get out of there. The others would rig an explosion to cover up the mess. You had already been taken away to the nursery. But I saw you before you left the room. I have checked on you over the years. Think of me as the Guardian angel you never knew you had.”

Wow.

“You certainly didn’t stop me from making bad decisions guardian angel.” I pointed out.

“That wasn’t my assignment. My job was to keep you alive, not give you life advice. I’m not what you would call a role model regardless. As a newborn I was quite the handful. Have you ever heard of the lost colony of Roanoke?”

The name sounded familiar. American History class? Yeah missing colony disappeared without a trace.

“Yes. First English settlement? A lot of people gone without a trace?”

He grinned.

“Oops. I believe your generation would say ‘My bad’? I even carved Croatoan on a tree to complete the mystery and perhaps steer suspicion towards the nearby Indians. I began to carve it on another tree before a tribe of warriors arrived. Not feeling like burning any other bodies I simply disappeared.”

“Why would you kill that many people?” I was not afraid. Curious more than anything.

“I am afraid I tried to hold off on feeding a bit too long. Last time I did that, I promise you. I went on a bloody rampage. Anyway I haven’t had that happen since. My feeding habits are quite solid so no worries.”

“So why are you keeping me alive? So Mom can kill me? You are one of them right? The coven she now belongs to?”

“When your mother awoke from surgery, the first time the nurse placed you in her arms she cried. They were tears of joy. She named you after a woman she greatly respected. Your mother loves you.”

“My mother… loves me. But she also hates me.” I told him truthfully.

“Your mother hates your father Dani. She… look the reason I am here now, showing myself to you, is because she wants to talk to you.”

I froze. Panic started to affect my breathing. I thought I was ready to die. But facing her…

“She is here?” I whispered.

“No. She wants you to call her. I am giving you my phone. Dial the number on the screen. She is waiting.”

“No.” I jerked back from the phone he tried to hand me. That would be it. A part of me still held on hope that she may love me. Some part of her would still want me despite how I was born. Despite the hell that I put her through. The panic attacks, asking about my father, asking why she never dated. I called her a vampire whore and hit her before… she screamed at me to get down and stood there, getting shot. She ran after those bastards to protect me.

“Your mother loves you. The change she underwent has affected her memories and some of her emotions. She needs to hear from you. She needs to hear your voice.”

“She hates me.”

I was crying. I hate crying.

“No. She may be confused right now. That is why she needs to hear your voice. This will be over soon. Your life will continue. Despite what you think you will live. You will have a long life. Your mother needs to hear your voice. I won’t lie to you. She may say some strange things. She may yell. But know that she loves you. You need to call her, now. You owe her that.”

I gazed into his red eyes and saw there was no way out of this. I reached for the phone and dialed.

It rang four times while Connor left the room.

She answered on the fifth. Nothing was said but I could tell someone was there.

I wasn’t sure what to say. I was scared. I was nervous. I wanted to cry. Instead I said what I always said when I was in pain and frightened.

“Mommy?”

Bella POV

“Jane I am not saying that.” I whispered. I had just returned from feeding and was with Jane in bed. Her devious mind was already at work.

“Bella the more Master Caius hears us make love the more likely we will get the large bedroom on the top floor.”

“He will just make us trade rooms with Felix or Demetri. Then we will have to listen to all the other guard doing that…”

“No. Master Aro told me the top bedroom had been designated by Caius as a war room he wishes to develop. But Master Aro will refuse to move us anywhere else. He will only agree to that room. If we keep this up Master Caius will break and give up his claim on the room.”

“Jane he is a father to me. This is embarrassing.” I argued.

“We would each have our own closet.”

“I don’t mind sharing a closet with you.”

“We could fit the double King size bed in those chambers and have plenty of room for the furniture we want Bella. Also we would be closer to the gardens on the ground floor of the actual castle itself. I know you love the gardens.”

It was true. They were very peaceful.

“We would also have room for the massage table you want. You love my massages. Becoming immortal will not change that love.”

I did love Jane’s massages.

“Think of the bookshelves…”

“Fine. But do we have to be so crude?”

“You don’t love. I will handle the crudeness for both of us. Just moan a bit louder. That’s all I’m asking. I will say the words.”

Was there anything I wouldn’t do for her? When I first arrived at Volterra, Caius did not really approve of me. Over the years we became very close. He taught me so much. When I slept with Jane while I was here, I was always careful to be quiet. I didn’t want to upset him plus I was a bit shy. I wasn’t exactly used to sex of any kind. Willingly that is.

“Fine. But I am not saying…”

A knock on our door interrupted my complaint.

“Bella? Jane? Master Aro would like to see you in his chambers if you are not… busy?”

It was Sheila, a member of the outer guard. She was so sweet. I could imagine she would be nervous about interrupting us if she thought…

“Of course. We will be there right away.” I answered.

Jane looked annoyed but then smiled.

“He will be back soon. We can visit Master Aro and then I can get my hands on you. Let’s hurry.”

She placed clean clothes in my hand and was dressed in a second. We raced down the cavernous hallways and arrived at Master Aro and Mistress Sulpicia’s chambers. He must have heard us for he called us in before I had a chance to knock on the door.

Walking in I saw all three Masters, both Mistresses and the entire inner guard.

“Masters? If this is an intervention due to my drug and alcohol use I promise I have stopped using.”

Master Aro threatened me with rehab once when I went on a bender for a week. I dialed it back after that. Rehab was not appealing. They generally did not care what I did in my human life as far as alcohol and drugs, but it was felt I could inadvertently kill myself at the time. He was right, as always. I had to stay in Volterra for a month. My own vampire version of 29 days. The abuse didn’t stop obviously but I never came close to overdosing again.

“There is the old Bella I love to see.” Master Aro smiled.

“I would love to see the new Bella, in the training court… training.” Master Caius added, raising an eyebrow.

“Of course Master.” Mistress Athenodora slapped the back of his head.

“She will train when she is ready Caius!”

Caius said nothing but did rub the back of his head. Jane held in a smirk. Perhaps I would say what she wanted me too after all.

“Isabella I want you to do something for me.” Master Aro told me.

“Of course Master.”

“I want you to speak to your daughter. She will be calling my phone soon. We all believe you should speak to her.”

“I don’t.” I thought I heard Master Caius say but my focus was on the one man I would do anything for in this world.

Except that.

“Master Aro… I have never refused you anything.”

“So please don’t now Isabella.”

Why? Why do they do this to me?

“I have no daughter!” I yelled. I never yelled at Master Aro.

“Yes you do! You are my daughter, not an evil soulless demon and you have a daughter and you love her!” He yelled back.

Master Aro never yelled at me.

Damn this child. Even in my new life she plagues me. I had no choice. If my Master wished it I would refuse him nothing. I would be long decayed without him. My life was his. He would never take advantage of that but I knew I could deny him nothing. I loved him. I loved them all.

“Yes Master. Please forgive my outburst. What would you like me to say to her?”

“Say what you will Bella. That is your decision. I just ask that you talk to her. She will be calling this phone shortly. We will be far enough down the hall to grant you privacy.”

“No! Please… may Jane and Chelsea stay with me?”

I did not want to be alone.

“Of course dear.” The room cleared with the exception of Jane and Chelsea. Master Aro’s phone buzzed.

I picked it up and stared at it before finally hitting the call button gently. Jane had helped me greatly in a short time with my touch. I knew what to expect coming in. I had been told over the years how to move, walk, dress myself as a newborn. Years and years I had this information given to me.

I placed the phone to my ear but said nothing. I did not want to hear her voice. Then I did.

“Mommy?”

I found my voice.

“Dani.” I wanted to stay cold. To threaten her people. She was a Quileute. That made her a target. Still her voice. That voice. The one she used when she was hurt.

“Yes Dani. It’s me.”

“Your voice is different.” She was crying softly.

“Are you okay?” I asked.

“I’m not going to die yet Mommy. I’m going to kill as many as I can. I promise. I saw Mommy. I saw what he did to you. I saw it all in his head. I’m sorry Mommy. I’m so sorry. You can kill me. I understand. Just let me watch you kill them all first. Let me watch and then I won’t mind. I promise.”

Oh God no.

I fell to my knees. She would sleep with me during storms. She snuggled under the covers and asked me when it would stop. I would sing to her.

Dani…

“Dani… don’t say that. I don’t want you killing anyone. You aren’t supposed to do that. I do that. Not you.”

“Mom I’m a dog. They turned me into a damn dog. I don’t want this. I am so sorry. I am sorry I came here. I am sorry I was born. I am sorry. I am sorry about everything. I want you to know no matter what you do to me I won’t be mad. I will always love you. I will always love you. If I could kill the part of me that is from him I would but I can’t.”

She was sobbing so much she stopped speaking.

My forehead hit the floor. My stomach hurt. How did my stomach hurt? I didn’t feel pain any longer. Only pleasure.

Jane was rubbing my back. My smooth back. The scars were still there. Hidden. Inside what used to be my heart.

“Dani… don’t kill anymore. Has he… has he touched you?” Please no.

“No Mommy. He hasn’t touched me.”

A pressure released from my chest that I wasn’t aware was there.

“I’m going to take him alive Dani. I am going to bring him here. You can’t imagine the pain I have in store for him. For years and years.”

“I know Mommy. I’m glad. Are you going to… torture me?”

“No!” I yelled into the phone. She was my baby…

No she wasn’t.

He could hurt her. He could touch her. He could rape her.

“Please just kill me. Make it fast. You were right. You were always right. Men are evil. All of them are dogs. They need to be put down.”

I thought of my Masters. Felix threatening Paul LaHote. Alec. Demetri’s protectiveness.

“Not all men are evil Dani.” I told her quietly.

“All of these are. They need to die. They are all crazy. I’m crazy too now. I’m losing my mind but I don’t care. Mom, I have to know… I need to know one thing. Please be honest.”

I knew what she would ask. I didn’t want her to. Why did Master Aro make me do this? Why?

“Go ahead Dani.”

“Do you love me? Does any part of you still love me?”

I lifted my head off the floor.

He belonged to her.

No.

No.

She belonged to me. She fucking belonged to me. He did this and he took her. He took my only good thing. I was shit. I was horrible. He made me like this. But she suffered for it. Still…

She was mine. I forgot. I hadn’t been able to look past the violence during my change. I raised her in secret from them to protect her and then I let her be taken.

She was mine.

“Yes Dani. Yes, I love you.”

She began wailing. It hurt me. I hurt inside. Whatever was there, a soul, a heart, whatever was there was not dead yet. It hurt.

I didn’t need to breathe but deep breaths were coming out of my body. I didn’t know why. I was shaking but I felt Chelsea and Jane’s hands on my back while I kneeled on the floor.

“Do you love me? Even though I am…”

“Yes! God I love you Mom. I am so sorry. I wish I could do everything over. I would be the best daughter I swear. I wish I could. I don’t care what you are. Believe me I like vampires a lot better than wolves. They are the only friends I have right now. I am sorry. I am sorry about everything.”

“So am I Dani. So am I. I wish I could do it again. I don’t know what I would have done differently. I should have been more attentive. I shouldn’t have just thrown money at you and hoped you would raise yourself. I knew I would turn. I always knew. It was supposed to be after you graduated high school. I always knew I would leave you and instead of taking advantage of the time I had, I pushed you away. I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay. I saw what he did to you. I had to listen… I was in their heads. All of them. Tell me what to do. Tell me and I will do it.”

Do?

“Stay safe. I know you are protected. I know Master Aro has you protected. I haven’t seen Connor or Magnus or Saville. I know they are around you. That’s how you got this number right?”

“Yes.” She said, her voice calming down between sobs.

“Stay low. They will not let anything happen to you.”

“What if he makes me phase?”

“If he does give him a message. Tell him Bella will be home for Christmas. I will meet him where I was born. I have to go sweetie. I love you. I need to prepare.”

“I love you too Mommy.”

I ended the call and stood straight up.

“Master Caius?” I said loudly. He was there in an instant.

“Yes Bella?”

“I need to know how to kill wolves. Slowly.”

He smiled.

“Follow me dear. We just had some werewolves brought in from Romania. It’s a full moon tonight. It should be fun.”

Billy Black POV

The pain was indescribable. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t move. I could lay on my back, still as could be and the ache was still there. I felt myself trying to heal and it caused even more pain.

One of my son’s was dead. Embry was dead. That little whore killed him.

She would suffer. Oh how she would suffer. After the battle I had simply planned to keep her and continue my line. She would have many, many children. Leah claimed phasing ruined her ability to have children. Leah was barren before she ever phased. She just didn’t want to face that.

Instead Dani would be a slave. I would inflict pain on her as much as possible. She would heal and I would inflict new torments.

I heard her heartbeat before she came in. Her scent at the door told me exactly who it was.

“Leah. I was wondering when you would appear. Ready to avenge your beloved Sam? Or perhaps your mother? I know the two of you weren’t close but she was ripped to pieces while alive.”

She walked inside slowly. Despite keeping her fantastic body over the years she looked like hell. Years of alcohol abuse after phasing made her eyes appear to be dead. Despite not being forty she had strands of grey hair, her pathetic coloring job had missed.

“No. Sam got what he fucking deserved. How are you doing Billy? That’s a lot of ice packs between your legs. Gone numb yet or are you still feeling the pain?”

I ignored her jab. Insolent little bitch. Were it not for the pact I made with a fellow tribal elder I would have her turned into a Pack whore and let her share the fate of my daughter.

“Why are you here Leah?”

“You made a pact with my mother. She played along with you and you wouldn’t allow me to phase. She tried to kill her husband over it. Seth told me. He told me everything you have been doing over the years.”

“Yes. What of it? I have held my end of the bargain. You have not phased.”

“Why just me? Why not Seth?”

“I only offered your mother one child. She chose you.” I told her honestly.

“This was after she told you of Charlie’s suspicions? About you?”

“Yes.”

“Why not just deny it? He couldn’t have believed that strongly. You were his best friend. He wouldn’t have wanted to believe. You could have pinned it on Paul or any of the others. Why shoot him?”

Despite the pain I was in I found myself smiling.

“You know.”

“You wanted Bella back.”

“Yes, and this time I planned to have her on her back so she could see exactly who was fucking her.”

“Why? What is wrong with you Billy? You are Ephraim’s heir. You raped your daughters? What kind of monster are you?”

“You fail to understand something Leah. I am above you. I am the Alpha. My wolf decides what it wants and takes it. It is the way of the nature. The dominant always rule over the submissive in any type of pack, family or coven.”

“You weren’t the Alpha when you raped Embry’s mother.” She pointed out.

“I have always been the Alpha.” I corrected her. “I am the Chief of the tribe. I always have been since I came of age. This land and these people are mine. I have no time to explain myself to you. Get out.”

“It looks like you have plenty of time. You aren’t going anywhere.” She grinned. Bitch.

“What do you want?”

“I want answers! I want to know why I gave up my life for something I thought was right and turned out to be twisted beyond recognition! Tell me if you are so concerned with your people and your line why you chose to continue it with a pale face. Why Bella?”

“She belonged to our pack. I marked her but she ran. It was time she returned. Why Bella? The first time I saw her with that damn leech in her yard, she practically dared me to complain to Charlie, knowing he would be angry over our hatred and superstitions over the Cullens. I warned her and it became clear to me she knew exactly what they were.

He left her. He left her and my Pack saved her. My Pack. That meant she was mine. But she was a tease. Stringing Jacob along. Making all my proud warriors lust after her. She needed to be marked and shown her place. Embry gave me the excuse I needed. I didn’t mean to mark her as badly as I did but I didn’t want her face like Emily’s. She had a beautiful face. Emily did as well before Sam marked her. So I marked her back. But I was in the heat of the moment. All I could think of was marking her and brutalizing her. That happened. I make no apologies for it. She would have been long dead if it was not for my Pack.”

“The Pack you chose not to fight with. Where was the honor in that?” the bitch asked.

“If I was needed I would have fought. I allowed my warriors to bask in the victory. Jacob should have been given the credit but he was too much of a pussy to step up and take his role. You want answers? Why I did what I did? Because I could. That is all the answer you need. My honor is keeping you out of this now. Go home and drink. Go to your important job as a convenience store clerk. Wipe some counters. Maybe grab LaHote and pray he gives you a mercy fuck. But get out of here.”

“No. I have an offer to make.”

“What do you have to offer that I could possibly want?” I certainly didn’t want to fuck her. Even if I was physically able.

“Another fighter. The leeches are coming soon. They are already here but many more are coming. You know you are fucked and I know you are not stupid. You plan to throw the Pack against them and run. I don’t know where you believe you can go that they will not find you but you plan to run. Your wolves are thinning out. The older Pack, the ones you relied on, are dying. Paul, Jared and Quil are going insane without their imprints. Sam is dead. Embry is dead. It is a matter of time before Jacob gives into his obsession with Bella’s daughter and fights you for Alpha. He won’t win of course but you will have to kill him. My brother is weak. He always has been. You are going to rely on very young teenagers to provide enough distraction to allow you to escape. You need me to fight in the battle.”

Damn it. She was right. She didn’t need to know this but I needed more wolves. Experienced wolves, not babies chasing their tails and pissing themselves at the thought of fighting real vampires.

“So you are going to let me out of the bargain your mother made?”

“If you agree to my conditions.”

Of course. Leah was always about what she could get for herself.

“And what would those be?”

“Neither Dani nor I phase until the leeches, all of them, not the three floating around here, arrive. You no longer Alpha order Dani to do anything. You stay away from her. This shouldn’t be a hard decision. Your smashed balls are testament to what happens when you fuck with her.”

“That all?”

“No. You fight. You do not run when the battle occurs.”

That was a rather difficult decision. I had planned on running. We were outnumbered. I could not escape now. Those damn invisible leeches would not allow it. But in the heat of battle I had a chance.

“I fight? You think I am not prepared to fight?”

“It’s a condition. I will give you something though. If you are in La Push after the battle and Dani and I survive you will be let out of this agreement. You may alpha order her to your heart’s content. Myself as well.”

Leah. The things I could order her to do to Dani… it was an intriguing idea.

“So I would give up control over my daughter until after the battle? I need her to fight. That won’t work.”

“Fine. You may order her to fight in the battle. That is all.”

“Anything else?”

“You stay away from Rachel and Rebecca for the remainder of your life. Never contact, never try to find them.”

I thought this over. She never said how long I would have to fight. Besides I was looking forward to getting my claws into an undead Bella Swan. I would have many, many years to enjoy Dani. They wouldn’t kill her. I could alpha order her from anywhere I was. Make her come to me in hiding. Continue to phase and rebuild the line. Rachel was ruined by Paul LaHote’s children but Rebecca. It didn’t matter. I had my Danielle.

“I agree to your conditions. On my ancestors honor.”

“I agree as well. Should you break this agreement you will no longer be worthy of being Alpha. I will be Alpha.”

I had to laugh. Alpha. A woman being Alpha.

“Yes. Should I break this agreement before my ancestors you shall be Alpha.”

I took her hand and watched in pleasure at her expression when she touched me.

“Be seeing you soon Leah. Tell my daughter the same. Have her cut her hair shorter. I like to have clean access to the neck when I bite. That always annoyed me about her mother. Too much hair.”

So I would fight. Long enough to find Bella Swan. It would not be hard. She would be looking for me. Let her come. I destroyed her once and I will do it again. I was the Alpha after all.

Jane POV

I had watched my Bella all night in trepidation. It was difficult to watch her fight werewolves without interfering. The entire guard felt the same. For years we had protected her from herself. Now to see her battle these foul creatures.

They were not nearly as large as the shifters of La Push but their strength was nearly the same. Strength that did them no good. Bella would simply grab one and prevent the other from reaching her and that wolf. Then she would dispatch it. One she crushed into nothing but fur and blood. The other had his snout ripped apart slowly until he turned his own head and snapped his neck to stop the pain.

Since the phone call with Danielle, even Master Caius had to admit she seemed more like herself. Focused, but not eerily cold. I was grateful. I spent many years feeling so cold I did not want to move, until I found her. I did not want her to share that fate.

Finally the wolves were gone. Bella had sparred with Heidi and Chelsea and did not lose control. Of course those two were family.

Finally before sun up I had her to myself. She walked inside our chambers with a predatory grin on her face. It wasn’t battle she was lusting for though.

“Are you ready to move into our new chambers love?” she asked me in whisper only I could hear.

I simply nodded my head. We didn’t bother taking our clothes off. That would come later.

“You will say it?” I asked quietly.

“Yes.”

I began moaning. Bella never touched me. She didn’t have to. The site of her covered in werewolf blood was enough to elicit sounds of passion, despite the stench.

I moaned louder.

“Yes Jane.”

“Are you sure?” I asked whimpering and winking at Bella.

“Yes my love. You no longer have to worry about hurting me. Please. All five fingers Jane! Now! Now! Your fist! Please my love…

“That is fucking it!” Master Caius yelled from his chambers, loud enough to be heard throughout the castle.

“Where are you going dear?” Mistress Athenodora asked.

“To Aro. They can have my fucking war room. I don’t care anymore! They are moving right fucking now!”

I brought Bella into my arms. She murmured into my ear, her breath sending tingles throughout my body.

“Looks like we will have room for that massage table love. Time for you to put it to use.”