Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Spy Games

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 14:

Spy Journal May

Dear Spy Journal,

My leg is fucking killing me. I can’t get this boot off for another month. My ribs have somewhat healed but I have to keep them wrapped. It’s not comfortable.

School hasn’t been bad. Luckily, I was able to miss two weeks and had Edward do my homework. I have also taught him the best places to get sushi and he has been an excellent delivery boy. He really is a well-trained dog even though he insists on holding hands occasionally. Thank God he hasn’t tried to kiss me anymore.

The only problem is he won’t leave me alone. I have been on bed rest and I can literally feel myself getting weaker. I haven’t been able to sneak away and see Arial. I haven’t been able to work out. I haven’t fired a weapon in so long I’m not sure if I could hit the side of a barn.

Jack and his egg heads at Area 51 or wherever the fuck their home base is, have not been able to develop a weapon that can kill these fuckers. Speaking of the fuckers I am surrounded by; Alice stays up my ass practically all day and Edward monopolizes my nights. Jasper has not spoken to me, even after my little stunt. He may be a bit annoyed but mostly he just seems resigned that I’m going to do what the fuck I want and if he doesn’t want to be hunted to the ends of the earth, he will have to go along with it.

Edward has given me a bit more information about vampires. Apparently, these bitches are all over the world and just as I feared the majority of them kill my peeps. According to Eddie the only ones they know about who feed from animals like the Cullens are some sort of ‘cousins’ in Alaska. I really wasn’t concerned about them until Edward let slip that they were some sort of succubae.

I have to meet them. I mean succubae are basically vampire whores so you know they would probably be down for anything. Plus if they are that into sex the likelihood that they swing for both teams is high.

Supposedly the blonde named Kate can cause electric shocks with a touch. The possibilities are endless. She is like a walking talking vibrator with breasts.

The ultimate fuck you came last week. Eddie brought me to his house. Alice began primping my hair and dressing me in the lamest dress. I had a sneaking suspicion that Edward wanted to take me to prom but surely not. I had a broken fucking leg. Who the hell would take their girlfriend to a dance when she had a broken leg?

Then I thought she may be giving me a makeover because he was planning to turn me into an eternal popsicle. I reasoned if he wanted that though, he would have let me turn in Phoenix. Thank God that bitch doesn’t want me to be a vampire. My near experience becoming one of the undead sent shivers up my spine. I still have an ugly scar on my wrist where that fuck head bit me. The scar was cold all the time but didn’t bother me much unless I actually touched it. Once this assignment was over, I planned to have a plastic surgeon take care of it.

The fucker actually took me to prom.

On a broken fucking leg.

His excuse was he didn’t want me to miss out on any human experiences. How about giving me more information on vampires around the world? How about telling me what Carlisle’s real story is? According to Jack who has been in touch with Jasper, not even the Major knows Carlisle’s real story other than he used to be in the Volturi and has indeed, to Jasper’s knowledge, never partaken of human blood.

The prom hurt. Instead of having the human experience of getting smashed and hanging with my fake friends, Edward took me behind the building, despite the rain and cool weather under some covered wooden shed and danced with me.

I asked him why he didn’t let me change and to my relief he explained that he didn’t want me to be a vampire. Arial told me to act like I wanted it but I refused. No sense taking chances and she admitted later she was a little buzzed when she suggested it.

By the end of my night, I considered starting a Vicodin addiction due to the pain in my leg.

The only interesting thing was the long haired puppy from La Push showed up in the parking lot. He said his Dad bribed him to come to the prom and convince me to break up with my boyfriend. He seemed embarrassed but he did it anyway. Then he told me his Dad said they, not he, but they, would be watching. I may have to take out this fucker to protect my cover. Would I be bummed about my first official kill being a handicap man? Not really. I believe that people with disabilities should not be treated differently than anyone else. He could die like anyone else who compromised my mission.

I hate Edward Cullen. If Dodo doesn’t figure out how to kill him soon, I may try to take a can of hairspray and a lighter just to see if I can surprise him enough to send the flame into his mouth. It would be a long shot but so worth it.

Spy Journal June

Things are looking up this month. The boot came off and the doctor ordered rehab.

At least I told Edward the doctor ordered rehab. He didn’t but it was too good an opportunity to pass up. Explaining to Edward that I didn’t want to be around him sweating and basically not looking like a lady, he agreed that rehab should be a private time that he could take advantage of and hunt while I took care of business.

Jack got me a membership at a gym in Pot Angeles and I drove the car bomb there every day. I ran for thirty minutes then an hour then worked my way up to two hours. It hurt but I did it. There was a heavy bag I could practice strikes on, relieving some pent up anger at the place I found myself in my life. Jack and even Connolly came a few times to spar with me. I also started free weights three times a week. At night I did pushups and sit ups in the bathroom with the shower running so Edward wouldn’t suspect.

Yes, I had to hide in the bathroom from my fake boyfriend because he wouldn’t leave me alone except when he was hunting or I was in the gym.

Jasper met with Jack and Connolly in person and told them every single thing he knew about the Volturi. Jack sent me an email with all their information.

This coven didn’t fuck around.

Esme had gotten better at cooking. I didn’t vomit her food any longer. The Food network was paying off. Charlie brought food from the diner most nights and actually brought me a salad when I asked. He had even talked the cook into grilling chicken instead of burning it in batter.

Alice constantly kept my nails healthy and I let her do my toenails because she wasn’t bad and it was cheaper than going to a salon.

Arial and I actually got to swim in the ocean. The water wasn’t as frigid as normal and it felt so nice. Before I came to Forks the both of us could swim three miles. We were lucky to cover half that distance. We saw some idiot’s cliff diving in the distance and it looked like a blast but Sasha walked out of the tree line and told us she would kick our asses. We didn’t go cliff diving.

Carlisle was still a bit standoffish. When Edward dragged me to the mansion Emmett constantly wanted to play video games. This is what he does all day? Jasper had perfected his imitation of a statue. I had a stare down contest with him and lost after five minutes. I tried everything. I even put two fingers up to my mouth and moved my tongue up and down between them while Alice had her back to me. Not even a grin. The man was good.

I finally, finally got Alice into a dressing room and saw her naked. She had a cute body as I suspected. Short but slim with the perkiest little breasts and tight little ass. She wanted my opinion on a lacy thong and bra set she had picked up and then apologized for embarrassing me. Sweetie, that wasn’t a blush brightening my face.

Not a bad month at all. If I could just get rid of Edward.

Spy Journal July

I fucking hate Edward Cullen. I swear I am going to burn him in that damn meadow.

Spy Journal August

School started. I finally had a break from the Cullens.

I thought I had a break.

Edward is in every single one of my fucking classes. Despite the tricks I have taught him I am so sick of him. He tried to kiss me two night ago and I fake sneezed in his face. He wants to hold my hand or drape his cold arm around my shoulder at all times, even going so far as growling at Mike Newton. Scared the shit out of Newton. I actually found it sort of humorous until I realized how truly possessive this bitch was.

I had no idea how I planned to get away from him. Jasper’s words haunted me. He would never let me go.

End of Spy Journal.

I can’t believe Charlie didn’t put up more of a fight. I told him Alice wanted to have a birthday party at her house for me and he said fine. What the fuck? He doesn’t give a damn if I’m not home for my 18th birthday? Even Renee called me this morning and wished me a happy birthday. She is the most self-centered person outside of myself I know and she took the time to dial a phone. Five minutes of talking to Alice and he was fine with me disappearing for the night.

He didn’t buy me a present either. I had to steal his credit card and buy some CDs I wanted and a new hunting knife from Newton’s I had seen.

“Act like you don’t want presents. Remember you are humble and…”

“Go fuck yourself, Jack.” I whispered. At times I wondered if he was really there or I had truly developed schizophrenia and he was a hallucination. Is a voice in your head a hallucination? Or… no… maybe I will ask Sasha later. It may be called something else.

Edward had his arm around me in English today. He was talking about killing himself when he thought James might kill me. He talked about breaking one of the Volturi laws and have them rip him to pieces. Then he quoted Romeo and Juliet when the professor asked him if he was paying attention.

Listening to him quote Romeo and Juliet, I had an epiphany. I had gotten everything from him. There was nothing else he knew. I didn’t even think he was holding back any longer. He just didn’t know anything else. Carlisle was a stone wall. Charming as always but dodged every question I had. Alice kept hinting that she saw me as a vampire and we would be best friends forever, causing Arial to curse into my ear for five minutes. Emmett called me his little sister yesterday. Esme told me I was her daughter. Rosalie was never going to give it up to me.

It was time to get out.

I pretended to go to the bathroom and saw Jasper in the hall. I slipped him a note that he grabbed the second Edward had turned to growl at Newton because of some random thought he probably had, I’m sure about riding me in the back of his Daddy’s stock room. The note was simply one sentence.

Get me the fuck out of this.

After the next class I found a note in my locker. It had two simple words.

Paper cut.

Done deal.

No, I couldn’t do that. Alice may see it.

Still it wasn’t a bad idea. But how could I get a papercut?

Fuck it. Like everything else, I will play it by ear.

That night Alice dressed me in something my grandmother, God rest her soul, would have worn. Then I had to walk down the stairs.

“Don’t forget to stumble a bit.” Arial instructed me.

Fuck that. I was doing this with my head held high.

Holy shit.

They really decorated the mansion. Streamers, a happy 18th birthday sign, the nice crystal at the table and a huge cake only I was going to eat.

And gifts. Gift bags and wrapped gifts.

“Our gift is already out in your truck, Bella.” Emmett told me. “Your stereo sucked so we got you a new system.”

“Thank you, Emmett and Rose. You shouldn’t have.”

You should have bought me a new car. Don’t you vampires have enough lying around? A new stereo in my truck is like giving a diamond necklace to a wart hog. It’s a pretty necklace but it’s still on a wart hog.

“Here you are, Bella.” Carlisle handed me a box and I shook it slightly, disappointed it did not sound like a diamond necklace I could pawn. Maybe it was cash, or a gift card with no limit.

Opening it up, I saw… plane tickets. Can you send out more mixed signals Carlisle? Do you want me dead, gone or just a bootie call for your baby boy?

“They are so you can see your mother. The tickets are open ended so you may go whenever you wish.”

“Thank you, Carlisle, Esme.” I even broke my stone facade and gave what I think was a slight smile.

You have to open ours next Bella!” Alice said, practically hopping while I thought of the time, I saw her naked little body and had to act so shy.

“I bet it’s more vintage designer clothes. Yay…” Arial commented. I agreed.

Jasper handed me the gift.

I looked at the gift.

Fuck it.

I unwrapped the gift and slid my finger quickly over a paper seam.

“Ow! Papercut.” I whispered. Turning to look at what my actions had wrought I saw Jasper in the very back. He winked at me and I grinned.

Jasper came for me and Edward hit me, sending me flying back into glass.

Wow, this brought back memories. Jasper was straining to get to me, eyes black and looking very hungry. Carlisle, Emmett and Edward were holding him back.

Rosalie, Esme and Alice’s eyes just turned black as well. It was just a fucking papercut.

Then I felt the slight burn and the wetness. Looking at my palm I saw a good sized gash across it. It was bleeding quite a bit.

“Bella! What the fuck did you do?” Jack asked. “Hawk, Ty get in that fucking house now!”

“No!” I told them, hoping the Cullens thought I was yelling at Jasper.

Shit, Edward was glaring at me. C’mon Eddie you already had my blood once. Haven’t you gotten used to it?

Oh shit he knows what it tastes like now. I bet he wants more heroin. Maybe this wasn’t a great idea.

“Ty blow a charge outside, distract them! I’m on my way!” Jack yelled in my ear.

“Stay back!” I told him. I suppose the Cullen’s thought I was speaking to them because the room cleared. Only Carlisle was left.

Fuck, this can’t be good.

“Let me see your hand, Bella. I can get that bandaged. It looks worse than it actually is.”

Thankfully Carlisle didn’t try to kill me. He actually put some suture bandages and wrapped it pretty securely after cleaning the cut.

“I’m sorry I ruined everything.” I lied.

Jasper is my new all-time hero. The guy is a freaking genius. If I was straight, he would so be my kind of guy.

I thanked Carlisle and drove home slowly, not seeing any of the Cullens. I would imagine they were sucking deer somewhere.

Charlie was in his chair when I returned home.

“Hey Bells. Have a good night?”

“Best night I have had in a very long time.” I told him. At least I hoped so. If I was on the same wave length as Jasper this would work. All he has to do is keep his thoughts to himself and play on Eddie’s guilt for putting me in a life threatening situation again.

“Glad to hear you had fun. I’m going to turn in. Night.”

“Night Dad.”

Happy birthday Bella. Hey, I got you a little something. Got a small cake, you want some? 18 is a big day. Hey, what is with the big bandage on your arm?

I relaxed for a bit and then went upstairs to take off this fucking dress. When I opened my door, I had a bit of a surprise.

Arial was in my room, the sneaky little bitch.

Arial slapped me. That shit was getting old.

“Bitch, I deserved it the last time but that shit is getting old. I’m swinging back next time it happens.”

“Bring it! That was fucking stupid. No way you didn’t do that on purpose! We could have gotten rid of Cullen without you risking your fucking life! Do you have a fucking death wish?! How bad is your arm? He threw you into a fucking glass table! Hawk had an RPG aimed at that fucking place!”

“Why? How did they know something…” I stopped before I admitted that I knew what I was doing.

“Yes, they did know you were up to something. Everyone saw it coming. We get it, you have squeezed the bitch for everything he had and were ready to get rid of him. But seriously, this was the plan you come up with? Bleeding in front of a family of vampires?”

“It was supposed to be a papercut. Eddie threw me into the table. Jasper wouldn’t have let me get hurt. He could have taken them all down if he wanted to.”

“Jasper? He attacked you?!”

“No, he didn’t. We had it sort of planned. As much as we can plan around his wife. He gave me the idea and when we looked at each other I knew and I played my part. Things weren’t exactly smooth but it could have been worse. How pissed is Uncle Jack?”

Arial seemed to deflate.

“He’s not really upset. I mean he is pissed that you pulled another stunt like this but I think he is really relieved.”

“Bella, I’m listening to the Cullens right now. Edward is ranting about the danger he has brought to your life. He wants the family to leave. Alice, Esme and Emmett are arguing against it and Rosalie and Carlisle are for it. Jasper isn’t in there but I am pretty sure he can influence the others to leave.” Jack informed me.

Thank God.

“Thanks, Uncle Jack. Look it was supposed to be a simple papercut. It…”

“I know, kid. Just relax. Stay low, wait for him to come to you and say he is leaving and then we can get you out of Forks.”

Out of Forks?

“No Jack, I’m staying. I already started my senior year and… considering what I did to Charlie last spring it’s… I’m not going to leave. You guys can get out of here and I will stay. It’s just another 7 months. I can do that.”

“You sure kid?”

“Yeah, as much as it kills me, I’m sure. I can head to Florida for college. I think without Edward Cullen in my life it will be bearable.”

Arial pulled a portable ear piece out of her coat.

“I’m staying too, Dad.” Arial told him.

“Arial…”

“I’m staying. Bella and I deserve some fun. It’s our senior year, I’m tired of being home schooled and we are going to stay together, even if it is in hell. Hawk can stay with me, while you and Sasha…”

“No, until we find a weapon that can kill these bastards we can work from here. Ty, and Connolly can track the Cullens and start investigating the Italians. Looks like we are going to be one happy family. Soon as Cullen is gone, Arial can enroll. Just try not to blow up the school you two, please?”

The two of us jumped into each other’s arms.

“Thank you, Daddy!”

“Thank you, Uncle Jack! I’ll never call you dodo again!”

“Bella?”

Fuck, Charlie. Edward Cullen slamming into my wall he doesn’t notice. My girl and he does.

Arial slipped into the closet and I threw some headphones on and started singing.

Charlie opened the door and smiled, waved and walked out.

Idiot didn’t even notice my headphones weren’t attached to a stereo or my phone. No way he knows that wireless headphones exist.

The next day Eddie wasn’t in school. None of them were.

Oh my God, it worked.

Jack told me at lunch that they had cleared the house.

Please tell me Eddie is leaving with them. If they cleared the house, he obviously isn’t planning on staying right?

The next day none of them were at school again. How could they be? I mean their caravan of cars left last night. All except one.

A fucking Volvo.

I was in a bad mood because of this little fact. Surely, he wasn’t staying behind right?

Then I arrived home.

Eddie was waiting for me. This could be good or bad. Considering he only had a few more facial expressions than I did it was hard to tell. Today he had the Mr. Tortured Monster look out.

“Edward?”

“Hello Bella. We need to talk.”

Say it. Say you are leaving, you little bitch.

“Sure, come inside.”

“I think it would be better if we have this conversation in private. Your father is coming home early. Would you follow me?”

I was on guard instantly then I relaxed. No way this pussy kills me. He has had plenty of chances.

Right?

Fuck it.

“Connolly has a scope on him. I’m in the tree line, try to talk him into moving there. I will be able to quiet my thoughts. I’m pretty sure if you can keep him talking, I can put one in his mouth and see if the tracer can catch something on fire.”

Sounds good Jack.

“Where do you want to go?”

“I was thinking we could take a walk in the woods, behind your home.”

“Why?”

I suppose my face may have slipped. He put Mr. Shocked face on.

“Bella, I would never harm you. Please, just follow me. It is best we have this conversation without roaming eyes or ears.”

Fine, it was worth the risk. He could have killed me in my sleep if he wanted to. We walked way to far considering he just wanted to have a conversation away from people. Finally drama queen stopped.

“Bella, we have to leave.”

Oh shit.

“By we you mean…” I am not going with this fucker. Jasper is going to have to kill him.

“I mean me and my family. My family has already left. I stayed behind to say goodbye.”

That’s a relief.

“Why are you leaving?”

Thank you, Jasper. You are a god among undead men.

“Carlisle is supposed to be ten years older than he is. People are starting to notice.”

“So what happened with Jasper…” worked. I couldn’t tell him that though. Shut up Bella!

“It was nothing I didn’t always suspect, and nothing compared to what could have happened.”

No kidding. My face was still sore from when Arial slapped me. I am so sparring with that bitch and taking her down.

“You just don’t belong in my world, Bella.”

“So you don’t want me to come.” Say it Eddie. Confirm it.

“I don’t want you to come.”

“You don’t want me.” say it bitch. You aren’t going to stalk me for the rest of my life. Say it.

“No.”

Oh God, it felt like a weight had been lifted from my chest. I hadn’t realized how happy those words would make me. The possibilities were endless now.

“This changes things.” I said in relief. I could cut my hair, wear the clothes I wanted, I could join the volleyball team. The season just started!

“Alright then.” I told him in my best resigned voice. No reason to make him suspect that I didn’t give a fuck completely. He may think something is up. Then again, he is fucking clueless so I doubt it.

“But if it’s not too much to ask can you at least promise me something? Don’t do anything reckless. For Charlie’s sake.”

Reckless? Bitch, I am going to party my fine ass off. I am going to tear this fucking backwoods town to the ground.

“And I will promise you something in return. This is the last time you will see me. I won’t come back and you can go on with your life without any interference from me. It will be like I never existed.”

“You promise?” I asked to be sure this unreal experience was actually happening. A tear fell down my cheek from joy.

“Bella, you are just not good for me.”

Wait a minute. Fuck this.

“I’m not good enough for you!?” This bitch is out of his mind.

“I’m just sorry I let this go on for so long.”

With that said Eddie was gone from my life.

I stood a bit in shock for a moment until I heard Jack’s voice.

“Congratulations Phoenix. Mission accomplished.”

Oh my God, I fucking did it!

I took off running. I didn’t know why, I just wanted to remind myself that I was alive. I was shouting for joy.

I was literally losing my mind; I had never been this happy in my life. This beat the first, second and third time I had sex.

I couldn’t stop laughing while I was sprinting. I jumped over fallen logs ran up trees, did backflips. I could do backflips now! Nobody was watching me!

I ran so recklessly that I actually tripped over a root I didn’t see and landed on my ass.

I didn’t care. I lay on the ground on my back and shouted my joy to the heavens. The rain fell on me and I opened my mouth letting it in. He was gone. He was really gone.

I’m not sure how long I lay there, crying tears of joy. I thought about the beating I took from James, the clothes I had to wear, the sex in Florida I missed. None of it mattered. This mission was over.

“Bella, your Dad is freaking out. You’ve been laying there for hours. I understand you are happy but come on kid, you’re Dad has a search party looking for you. Sasha is fifty yards away. Get up, tell your Dad you are okay and sneak over tonight to party. I’ll even let you and Arial have the good stuff.”

“Fine.” I sighed.

“Wait!” Sasha said quietly.

“Holy shit.”

“What?” Jack asked her.

“Jack, there is a wolf in the woods. A very big fucking wolf. It’s completely black. Bella, do you have your gun? I can’t get a clean kill shot because of a damn tree in my way.”

“No, I don’t have my gun.” There went my joy. I survived vampires and now a giant wolf was going to take me out. I did have a knife and began pulling my right jean leg up, lying very still.

“Jack, this son of a bitch just turned into a man.” Sasha told me.

“A fucking werewolf?”

“Yeah Jack. A fucking werewolf. He is walking up to Bella. should I take him out?”

“Can you hear his thoughts?”

“Yes, he is looking for Bella. He is one of the guys from the reservation Charlie sent to look for her. He wants to take her back.”

“No, do not kill him. No go on the target. Bella you alright?”

Alright? Was I alright?

I started laughing again. I was found by a fucking werewolf. Of course I was. It wouldn’t ruin my good mood though. I didn’t give a damn anymore. I was going to party. Forks was about to meet the real Bella Swan.

I felt myself in some very warm arms. I guess this was the wolf man.

“Bella, my name is Sam Uley. Are you okay?

Am I okay?

“He’s gone!” I shouted.

“I’m going to take you back to your father.”

“No you don’t understand, he’s gone!”

Am I the only one who feels the euphoria that has taken over the universe? I didn’t even give a damn that a half-naked dude who spends part of his time as a big dog was carrying me.

The tears of joy wouldn’t stop.

“Bella!”

Oh. Dad. I guess I was back.

“She is okay, Charlie. Cold from being in the rain but fine. She kept repeating he’s gone. I think…”

“Who’s gone?”

“The Cullens, Charlie. They left. All of them moved.” Wheelchair guy informed my Daddy.

“Take her inside. The doctor is inside, we need to get her warmed up.”

Warmed up? I wouldn’t have a corpse sniffing my panties tonight. Doesn’t get much warmer than that.

I started laughing. I couldn’t stop. I don’t know if this was a delayed psychotic reaction to the events of the last 7 months or… I didn’t know. I was just so happy I couldn’t stop laughing.

“She must be in shock from grief. Let’s get her inside.”

Charlie whispered in my ear.

“I know you must be devastated by Edward leaving but we will get through this. Just try to calm down.”

I laughed even louder.

Edward Cullen was gone. Fuck him and fuck werewolves. I was getting my life back.