Bella MacLeod's Twilight Fanfiction

Complicated

By BetterInTexas

Chapter 08:

BPOV

I was sitting on the beach staring at a campfire being held by Paul, thinking about the night I have had. Too say that Charlie was not pleased that Matt left was putting it lightly. When I told him we were taking a break to re-evaluate our relationship, he was even angrier. He strongly suggested that I go to Texas and “fix things.” I got pissed off and may or may not have slammed a door on the way out. He just assumed it was my fault! I didn’t have a car so I walked down the road until Paul pulled up on his bike and I jumped on the back. To his credit he didn’t say anything. He just took me here to First Beach pulled out a blanket, lit a fire and wrapped his legs around me from behind so I could lean back on him. Now I was staring into the fire. He had his arms around me. I had shed a few tears but they were tears of anger not sadness.

“You know you can stay with me if you want. Or at Sam’s place.”

“That’s awful nice of you to volunteer Sam’s place.” I laughed a little.

“He won’t mind. You are Pack now. He is the Alpha. It’s kinda his thing to look out for all of us.”

Interesting. “I may need to take him up on that before this summer is over. If things are this bad now, I can only imagine how bad it’s going to be when he finds out about you.”

“I also mentioned that you could stay with me.”

I sighed. “Maybe one day. But not now.”

“I understand.” He leaned into my hair and sniffed. I knew he loved the smell of me. I loved to smell him too. I guess its a primal thing.

“You want to stay on the beach tonight?”

“Really? How are we going to do that?”

“I can go get a tent. I promise to keep my hands to myself. I just want to be near you. I don’t like it that he upset you. I need to know you are okay.”

I thought about for a second. Then I nodded. Feeling his arms around me all night would be nice. Nice hell, I wanted it so bad I couldn’t stand it.

He went to move. “Stop. Hold me longer. Just hold me for now.” He nodded his head and squeezed me tighter. I closed my eyes and relaxed in his presence.

Charlie POV

I can’t believe my eyes. I had followed Bella to apologize for acting like an ass. A major ass. It was just that Matt was so good for her. I hated it to end over something silly. It couldn’t have been that bad of a thing. They were fine when they got here. I had almost caught up to her in my car when I saw a bike pull up to her. Great. Paul LaHote. I was going to have to stop him from harassing her. What was he doing out of La Push anyway?

Then I saw her get on the bike with him. I followed at a distance. I saw him pull up at First Beach. And now I was watching Paul sitting with Bella between his legs by a campfire. The two of them were acting like they had been together forever. What the hell is wrong with her? I warned her about him. I should have known when she asked about him that something was wrong. I stood there debating if I should confront her or not when I heard steps behind me. I turned to see Sam Uley.

“Stalking is a crime, isn’t it Chief?”

“When it’s your daughter it’s not stalking. Did you know about this?”

He nodded.

“And you don’t see a problem with it?”

“No. Bella is an adult last I checked. I imagine she can do what she wants.”

“Not in my house.” I growled out at him. Who the fuck did he think he was?

“Then she can stay at mine.” What the hell? He doesn’t even know her that well.

“Sam you know Bella has a future. And I know you have been working with Paul but you know as well as I do that Paul has no future.”

“I don’t know that at all, Charlie.”

“Did you have something to do with this Sam? Did you break up Bella and Matt?”

“No Charlie I didn’t. As I said. Bella is an adult. And Bella knows if she gets tired of your shit she always has a place with me and Emily. I would suggest you leave them alone. Who she spends her time with is her business.”

“Its been good talking to you Sam. You can leave now.”

“Why? So you can stalk Bella some more? You’re on my Reservation. I don’t have to go anywhere. But I will leave you alone with your thoughts. I would make a suggestion though. I wouldn’t upset Bella in front of Paul. It wouldn’t be a good idea.”

“I tell you what Sam. You have a daughter one day and then come talk to me. Until then mind your own business.” See how he likes that.

“You may want to take your own advice Charlie. Mind your own business. Have a good night.” Sam nodded his head and walked away. Damn he is quiet. I could hardly hear him moving in the trees. I saw Bella wasn’t going to go anywhere. Considering I had already made her mad tonight I figured I would address this with her tomorrow. See if I can talk some sense into her. She has too much of her mother in her I guess.

I drove away wondering what time she would be home tonight. If she was coming home tonight. I figured I would stop at Sue’s place and vent. I knocked on her door and she answered. But she didn’t have her usual smile.

“Charlie. I wasn’t expecting you.”

“I was in the area and thought I would come by and see you.” I smiled at her. “Actually I have a problem with Bella and I need to vent to someone.”

She didn’t look surprised. Strange. “What sort of problem Charlie?”

“Did you know her boyfriend left town suddenly to go home to Texas and she is suddenly seeing Paul LaHote of all people?”

“I… I may have heard something about that.”

“You knew?”

“Charlie I just said I may have heard something. You know how small town gossip is. If it has been going on it hasn’t been going on long.” She was lying. She knew something. And it wasn’t small town gossip.

Paul POV

I was walking hand in hand with Bella to go get a tent. I stepped into the parking area by the beach when I smelt it. Bella noticed me pause.

“What is it Paul? A vampire?”

“No, worse. Charlie has been here recently. He must have followed us.”

“Oh shit.”

“He was going to find out eventually anyway Bella.”

“Yeah, but I didn’t want him to find out this soon. I mean Paul I just told him Matt and I were on break tonight. Now he is going to think I had been cheating on Matt.”

I sighed. I knew she was right. And I knew Charlie was never going to approve of me. I guess that’s life.

“You want me to take you home?” Please say no.

She bit her lip and had that look she got when she was in deep thought.

“No. Screw it. I want to be with you. I am going to be with you. If he can’t handle it, then that’s his problem. Let’s go get that tent.”

An hour later we were back by our fire which had already died down. I laid down in the tent and Paul laid next to me.

“Paul? What do you want to do with your life? I mean if you could go anywhere and do anything what would you do?”

“I don’t know. I havent ever really thought about it.” I was ashamed to admit this.

“Start thinking about it. You can’t be a wolf forever.”

“Actually I probably will be Bella.”

“There were Packs in the past right?”

“Yeah.”

“And they are not here now. So obviously you won’t be a wolf forever. You are a protector and I appreciate that. But you need to think about your future. Don’t give up. Now what do you like to do?”

“I like building things I guess. I used to think about getting a job counseling kids who are in the situation I was when I grew up. But like I said, I haven’t really had time to think about it.” Until now. If I planned to win Bella, to get her to marry me one day and have kids, I was going to have to get it together.

“Online classes.”

“Huh?”

“Online Classes. Look into them. Buy a computer and get an internet connection and start studying when you aren’t patrolling or working. If you really want something you can find a way.”

“Yeah, I think I may do that.”

“You can start online classes anytime. We will look on my laptop tomorrow for some programs you might be interested in. I know UW has online programs. And being Native American, there should be plenty of financial aid and grants you can get.”

“Is it important to you?” I asked her. I didn’t want to be a disappointment to her.

“It’s important to you. I don’t want anybody ever to limit you. Not me or Sam or vampires. You are to strong for that.”

“Thanks baby.” I told her. She cuddled a little closer to me. I wanted to kiss her so bad. But I would wait. This was going to go at her pace.

Leah POV

“Matt don’t forget that church has changed. Mass starts at 9:30 now. So don’t get too drunk tonight!”

“Yes Momma.” Matt replied rolling his eyes. I looked at him in panic. I guess he could recognize it.

“Whats wrong Leah?”

“I didn’t bring anything to wear to church! I didn’t know… what the hell am I going to do?”

“You can wear jeans. Its kinda informal at our church.” He said smiling.

“I only brought one pair and it has a rip in the thigh!”

“Okay, relax… Hey Mom!”

“Yeah sweetie.” Debbie said walking in.

“Leah didn’t bring any church clothes.” Dammit Matt!

“Oh good. Come on darlin.”

“Uh where are we going?”

“To Target. I saw some of the prettiest dresses there the other day. I can’t imagine it will be a problem finding you something. Tiny waist, long legs big bust. Hell I bet a burlap sack would look good on you. Matt we will catch you in an hour or so. I will have her back in plenty of time to go meet those drunk heathen slobs you call friends.”

Matt smirked at me and gave me a little wave as I was dragged out behind his mother. I soon found myself in the passenger seat of a very large Chevy truck.

“So are you having fun down here darlin?”

“Uh yes ma’am.” She was smiling at me and started staring.

“What? Do I have something on my face?” God I hoped I didn’t have anything in my teeth. I had grapes at breakfast this morning.

“No Leah. I was just thinking about what pretty babies you and Matt are going to have.”

Had I been drinking something I believe I would have spit it out on the dashboard.

“I’m sorry darlin. I’m missing the filter between my brain and my mouth. I didn’t mean to shock you dear.”

Oh shit. I haven’t told Matt I can’t have kids! I wonder what his reaction will be? Oh lord. I need to tell him soon.

“Oh by the way. As long as we are speaking of awkward things thanks to my big foot in my mouth, I need to get your laundry.”

“Huh?” I was still in shock I think. And the hits keep coming.

“Your laundry dear. So I can wash your clothes. I can just throw them in with ours. I picked up your shorts and shirt yesterday out of your bag, hope you don’t mind, but I couldn’t find the underwear you wore yesterday. Figured you must have hid them somewhere.”

“Uh.” I wonder if I jumped out of this truck if it would kill me. I hope so.

“It’s okay darlin. We’re both females. You can talk about your drawers. Just hand them over when we get home and I will throw them in the wash.”

How to get out of this? I, I… I was speechless. She is looking at you Leah. Say something! Debbie was smiling at me all of a sudden. What was she thinking now?

“Uh Deb..Deb…”

“Oh my God! You don’t wear underwear do you? I knew it!”

“Wha… what?”

“You just struck me as the type. Real in touch with nature kind of girl. Don’t sweat it sweetie. Just between you and me, I hardly ever wear them either. Drives Ben crazy knowing that, ya know? Gets him worked up and keeps him that way all day. You ever want to scar Matt for life use that little fact on him.” she said winking at me.

This has to be… no there are no words.

Two hours later I was in front of a mirror in Matt’s bathroom getting ready to go to some party tonight and meet his friends. I had brushed my hair for over thirty minutes. I wish it was still long. It used to hang to the middle of my back. I tried to put makeup on but I really didn’t know what I was doing. I felt Matt coming before I he walked in.

“Whats wrong?”

“What makes you think something is wrong?”

“I can feel it.” That surprised me a little.

“I can’t do anything with my hair and I suck at makeup and…”

“And you are the most naturally beautiful woman I have ever seen. Can I make a suggestion?”

“Of course.” I whispered.

“Turn around.” I turned from the mirror and was facing him. He ran his fingers through my hair. I had to stop myself from purring like a damn cat!

He brushed my hair back off my face a little. He took the lipstick from my hand and placed it on the counter.

“You know those really tiny tight blue jean cut off shorts you have?”

I nodded my head.

“You know that mid drift tank top you have? The red one?”

I nodded my head again.

“Put that one. Don’t touch your face or your hair. I will be right back.”

I walked into his room and put the clothes on that he asked me to wear. He walked back in with his hands full.

“Now we are going to make a real Texan out of you. This is my mom’s straw hat and a pair of her Justin boots. Put them on.”

I did as I was told and couldn’t believe what I saw in the full body mirror hanging on the closet door. I really liked this hat. And the boots were pretty cool. With the cut off shorts I looked…

“Abso fucking lutely perfect.” Matt said walking up behind me and looking in the mirror. I leaned back into his chest till I realized it pushed the hat down over my face. I giggled. I actually fucking giggled. I can’t remember the last time I giggled.

“I’m gonna make a Texan out of you yet Clearwater. Now let’s go.”

I sat next to Matt on the way to wherever the hell we were going. We turned off on a dirt road and things got bumpy. We were in his dad’s truck and he had moved the armrest between us up so I took that as my cue to move next to him. He placed his hand on my leg and it sent electric shocks through my body.

I guess this is as a good a time as any.

“Matt before we go any farther there is something I kinda forgot to tell you about. Something that would have a long-term effect if we decided, well you know, to stay together, or get together?”

“Okay Leah. Go ahead and tell me.”

Best to say this quickly I had no idea how this was going to go.

“I can’t have kids.”

He didn’t look over at me. He just kept his eyes on the road.

“Why do you think that?” Oh shit.

“Well… I don’t get my cycle. You know my…”

“Yes Leah, I know what a cycle is.” he said smiling at me.

“Let me ask you something Leah. Did you get it before you turned into a wolf?”

“Yes. But turning into a wolf must have screwed that up.”

“Not really.”

“Huh?” What the hell was he talking about?

“Didn’t you tell me that you guys mature almost overnight and then stay the same until you stop phasing?”

“Yes…”

“So your bodies are basically frozen until you stop turning into a wolf right?”

“Yes, I guess.”

“And when you stop phasing your bodies become unfrozen right? So it only makes sense that you wouldn’t have kids now. Your body is frozen so to speak. As soon as you stop phasing you will most likely be able to have kids. Just like before you phased.”

I had been so angry for so long I never thought if that. It never occurred to me to think…

“But what if I can’t?”

“Do you want kids?”

“More than anything. I mean one day of course. Not like today.”

“Then we can adopt if you can’t have kids.”

I felt so much relief I almost missed him saying if we could adopt. Not, I could adopt. We. I shut up and allowed myself to feel relief and happiness. I never wanted to go back to La Push. I wish I could stay here forever. We pulled up to a gate and Matt got out. He opened the gate and I drove the truck through while he closed the gate behind me. We drove over a very bumpy field. I was about to tell him if he wanted to find a make out spot he didn’t have to search this far. Then I saw it. A set of headlights in the middle of the field. As we drove up I could hear country music blaring. There must have been thirty or so people hanging about.

We got out of the truck and started walking towards the headlights.

“BARK! HEY EVERYBODY! BARK IS BACK!

A large man came running out of nowhere. Well kinda running. He was huge. He picked Matt up in his arms and threw him over his shoulder. He was about to turn around until he saw me.

“Well howdy ma’am. Aren’t you just gorgeous? I’m glad you found me tonight. Let me dump his skinny ass over in the woods and I will be right with you.”

“T Bone. Put me down! Now!”

The large gentleman known as T Bone placed Matt on his feet. I looked up and saw nearly everyone here gravitating to us. To him actually. I could tell within a moment that he was the alpha of this pack. People were shouting hello to him and a few asked who I was. Matt walked over and placed his arm around me.

“Listen up everybody. This is Leah Clearwater. None of you better get any ideas cause she is with me.” Matt said. Somebody placed a cold beer bottle in my hand and I saw Matt get one as well. Matt took me around and introduced me to his old teammates. Everybody was nice. We sat around in lawn chairs in an area lit up by headlights listening to people share stories. Matt got up to say hello to someone and holding his hand I followed.

“Well aren’t you something? Are you Mexican?” I heard a shrill little southern belle voice ask me.

“Excuse me?” I turned around to see a cute little blonde girl with her shorts up her ass, not that I could talk, and a checkered button up shirt tied over her belly button.

“Hey Kristen, this is Leah.”

“Thats nice. Are you Mexican? Or just addicted to a tanning booth?” Oh fuck no.

“Kristen stop being a bitch.” Matt said glaring at her.

“I’m actually Quileute.”

“Whats a Quileute? Sounds contagious.” The little bitch grinned at me!

“I’m from an Indian tribe on the Olympic Peninsula.”

“Oh wow. Matt where did you find her?”

“The Olympic Peninsula Kristen. Maybe if you would fucking listen you might have figured that out on your very own.” Matt had a few beers at this point and he was getting annoyed with her. She struck me as a bitch that wanted him but never got him. He rolled his eyes at me and I knew. She never got this. Jealous little bitch.

“So Leah is it true that Indians like live in a teepee and skin buffalo or what?”

“That’s called a stereotype. They’re not all true. I mean do you fuck every traveling salesman that shows up at your daddy’s farm?”

Amazingly this bitch was just drunk enough to step up to me. It was time to end this. I growled at her. Loudly. Form the smell that hit my nostrils I think she may have peed on herself just a little. Matt was laughing his ass off. Guess he was enjoying himself. He put an arm around my waist and I shivered the same way I do every time he touches me. “Lets go baby. I want to get home. You better drive. I will give you directions.”

I turned and smirked at the blonde farm girl and walked with Matt to the truck. Before we had made it to the truck I found myself in the air. What the fuck!

“She’s mine Matt! You can’t have her. I’m taking her home…” I was apparently being abducted by a very large very drunk man named T Bone. Then I was spinning. No T Bone was spinning. Then I was back in Matt’s arms and T Bone was passed out on the ground. “Sorry about that. He’s a quick little drunken slob but he usually gets dizzy and passes out when he lifts something over his head.

“It’s okay.” I laughed. These people were… a lot like the guys in the pack.

I drove us home while Matt sang country music with the radio loudly. He wasn’t a very good singer but I don’t think he cared. I didn’t. It was a blast. I had never seen him cut loose like this. We pulled into his driveway and he got out and opened the door for me. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me out of the truck before I knew what happened. I wrapped my legs around his waist and ground into him. I couldn’t help it. The touching all night had pushed me over the edge. I found myself pushed up against the side of the truck and his lips finally were about to find mine. Then he stopped.

“No.”

“No?” I asked breathlessly.”

“No. When I kiss you the first time I damn sure am not having alcohol on my breath.”

I moaned a little bit. “Matt you’re driving me crazy. I don’t care about your breath.”

“I know baby. tomorrow night we are going to a spot I love. We are going to camp tomorrow night. It is time we stopped fighting this. I am going to go crazy. Now lets go inside so I can take a very cold shower.”

I moaned. I appreciated his sentiment though. I was so close. But this was forever I was after. I would have to be patient.

Paul POV

I couldn’t sleep. Not with Bella pressed against me in my arms. Her skin felt so amazing. She was talking in her sleep. She started snoring and then snored loud enough to wake herself up.

“What time is it?”

“About 4 AM.”

“You snore pretty loudly. Did you know that?” She mumbled. I had to smile.

“Yeah I guess I do. I will work on that okay?” She ground her ass a little harder into me. Any hope I had of sleep tonight just went out the window.

“Paul?”

“Yes baby?”

“Are you really going to take care of me?”

“I want to.”

“Can you kiss me Paul? I want to know what it feels like. To be kissed by you.”

“Bella are you sure you are awake?”

“Yeah I think so.”

“Baby you can stay with me tomorrow night inside. And if you still want to kiss me, I will be glad to. But I don’t want to do it when you are half asleep.”

She sighed and laid her head back on my arm.

“Okay. Night baby.”

“Good night my Bella.”