She’s So Gone
By Midnight Dreamer
Chapter 17:
Rose knew that once Izzy started playing that no one would be able to warm up and not stop to listen. Her melodies were haunting…or perhaps enchanting was the proper word. They clung to your soul. As the group gathered around to hear her warm up, Rose made sure she was in Izzy’s line of sight just like she promised. When Jasper stood up next to her she knew the second Izzy felt them watching. She tensed only mildly and met eyes with Jasper. Her gasp gave away her nerves and she quickly shut her eyes only to reopen them and seek out Rose. Rose smiled and nodded her encouragement to keep playing. Then the first band was announced.
“Scarlet Rayz please come to the stage.”
Everyone seemed to watch the small band of four make their way out to the front of the cafe’. It was composed of four very tall very leggy girls. Izzy felt her self-esteem take a hit. She was aware she was pretty but compared to the four runway models that just walked out the front she was common. The band opened up and the sweet sounds of a fiddle and a banjo filled the air.
(Tortured, Tangled Hearts ~ Dixie Chicks)
Well there was a little falter
At the altar of confession
Down on its knees true love did fall.
After thirty-one days of sleepless nights
She woke up to end it all.
With “I love you” in a fresh tattoo
Engraved upon his chest
She took her name right off his heart
So here’s to thee unblessed.
Oh love oh love you fickle thing
Such pretty words and golden rings
It was a broken dream right from the start
Bless their tortured tangled hearts.
Ooohhhh oooohhhh oooohhhh
(Instrumental)
Well they passed the confusion
Coupled with delusion
Makes the best made plans sometimes fail
They wined and they dined
Had peace of mind
She bought a gown and he rented tails.
But the mighty cloud of destiny
Came drifting through the gate.
Busted up what could have been
A perfect hopeless case.
Oh love oh love you fickle thing
Such pretty words and golden rings
It was a broken dream right from the start
Bless their tortured tangled hearts
Oh love oh love you fickle thing
Such pretty words and golden rings
It was a broken dream right from the start
Bless their tortured tangled hearts.
Ooooohhhhh oooooohhhhh oooooohhhh
oooooohhhhhh ooooooohhhhh.
(Instrumental fades out)
The crowd cheered loudly for the group. When they came back stage the other players also gave them a round of applause.
“Next up is Allen Davis.”
Izzy was happy to know she wasn’t the only solo performer that was going against all these bands.
A soft guitar started playing before he started to sing.
(I only get this way with you ~Rick Trevino)
I only feel like i feel with you and nobody else
And I only want to be with you and be myself
But when I look in your eyes something happens to me every time
And I can’t seem to find what to say or do.
I only get this way with you…
I only get this way with you…
I only feel this way with you..
And when we’re together, I feel like I never ever felt before.
As if I’m walking through that door to love,
A love that I never knew..
I only get this way with you…
I want you to know how I feel when I’m holding you in my arms
And I want you to know how I miss you when we’re apart
But when I look in your eyes something happens to me every time
And I can’t seem to find what to say or do.
I only get this way with you…
I only get this way with you…
I only feel this way with you…
And when we’re together, I feel like I never ever felt before.
As if I’m walking through that door to love,
A love that I never knew…
I only get this way with you…
When I think about all times I’ve known
What I thought was love it was never this strong….
(guitar music)
I only feel this way with you…
And when we’re together, I feel like I never ever felt before.
As if I’m walking through that door, to love,
A love like I never knew…
I only get this way with you…
I only get this way with you…
I only feel this way with you…
(Music fades out)
Again applause could be heard. As he came back stage he was clapped upon the shoulder by several of the guys heading out to the cafe’. Jasper’s band was up next. Izzy wondered what song they had chosen. Was it new or an old one? When she thought about it she guessed it was new since Rose had to go with Jasper yesterday to finish working on it. Izzy shook her head and stood to head toward Rose. Rose saw this and met her half way.
“Good luck Aphrodite.” Izzy whispered.
“Thanks Swan.” Rose said back just as quietly.
“Would our reigning Champions the “Misguided Misfits” please take the stage?”
“Well I guess that’s my que.” Rose said and started out with the others. Izzy made her way to the opposite side of the stage so she could watch the performance. She watched as they all settled in. Edward and Emmett on guitars, Alice on bass, Rose on keyboard, and Jasper settled behind the drums. Izzy watched as he twirled his sticks and counted off a beat. She wasn’t sure who was singing as they all had microphones. When the music started she was surprised…she expected something…else?
(Trying not to love you ~ Nickelback)
(Edward singing)
You call to me…and I fall at your feet
How could anyone ask for more?
And our time apart… like knives in my heart
How could anyone ask for more?
But if there’s a pill
To help me forget
God knows I haven’t found it yet
But I’m dying to
God I’m trying to ’cause
Trying not to love you
Only goes so far
And trying not to need you
Is tearing me apart
Can’t see the silver lining
From down here on the floor
and I just keep on trying
But I don’t know what for
’cause trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more
And this kind of pain… only time takes away
That’s why it’s harder to let you go
Nothing I can do…without thinking of you
That’s why it’s harder to let you go
But if there’s a pill
To help me forget
God knows i haven’t found it yet
But I’m dying to
God I’m trying to ’cause
Trying not to love you
Only goes so far
And trying not to need you
Is tearing me apart
Can’t see the silver lining
From down here on the floor
And I’ll just keep on trying
But I don’t know what for
’cause trying not to love you
Only makes me want you more
So I sit here divided
Just talkin’ to myself
Was it something that I did?
Was there somebody else?
When a voice from behind me
That was fighting back tears
Sat right down beside me
Whispered right in my ear
Said I’ve been dying to tell you…
That I’m trying not to love you
Only went so far
And trying not to need you
Was tearing me apart
Now I see the silver lining
And what we’re fighting for
If we just keep on trying
We could be much more
’cause trying not to love you
Ya trying not to love you
Only makes me love you more…
Only makes me love you more….
As soon as the last note was played the crowd went crazy. Izzy actually had to hold her hands over her ears as the cheers were so loud. The crowd was chanting encore as they left the stage. Izzy walked back around to the staging area and found that the energy coming off them was contagious. She almost wanted to start bouncing around. Almost. Rose came rushing over to her and grabbed Izzy’s hands and was jumping up and down.
“Did you hear them Izzy…they loved it.”
“Yes I did Rose. I’m sure I lost some of my hearing with how loud they were.” Izzy giggled.
Rose drug Izzy over to her area and the two girls started talking about the song. Izzy was surprised when Rose said that Jasper helped her a lot with the lyrics. And that it was his suggestion to have Edward sing it instead of himself. With the puzzled look on Izzy face she was sure Izzy had no idea what she was talking about.
“Izzy, Jasper usually does most of the singing. Hell Eddie was scared shitless going out there. He has no problem rocking out when he is hidden from sight behind a keyboard or taking Jazz’s place at the drums. This was his first time in the spot light. So you should take courage from him when you go out on stage.”
“I’ll keep that in mind Rose. I’m still nervous as all get out though.”
“No need to be nervous Izzy.” Jasper’s voice once again caused them to jump.
“Damn it Jasper, stop sneaking up on us like that…or I’ll but a bell around your neck.” Rose yelled at him, while Izzy snickered.
“Sorry Rosie. I promise I’ll make more noise next time. Maybe I’ll knock something over, or cough, or stomp my feet or something.” Jasper said with a devilish grin.
“Fine, but remember for next time.”
“I will. Now the others wanna know if they can come over and talk to Izzy some if it’s alright with her? Emmett is bouncing like a child and Edward is antsy…but I’m not sure if it’s because he wants to talk to Izzy or if it’s the high from being on stage.” Jasper said pointing his thumb toward the rest of the band.
Izzy and Rose leaned around him and looked at the three remaining members of the Misfits. Emmett was indeed bouncing around like a child who was about to get the best gift ever, and Edward was acting like he was hyped up on sugar or caffeine. Alice stood ever stoic and stared at her nails. Izzy looked over at Rose the same time that Rose looked at her. The two started laughing hysterically.
“Alright we are not going to do this again are we? What has got you to all giggles again?” Jasper asked looking at the two of them like they lost their minds in the five minutes he had been standing there.
Rose settled first and looked at Jasper with a smirk on her face.
“Well Jasper look back at Edward and picture him in green tights and a little green hat with a feather in it and try not to laugh.”
“What the hell are you on about?” Jasper asked as he turned to look at Edward. After a few seconds of picturing it he saw what the girls did. Edward did indeed look like Peter Pan at that moment. The kid who never wanted to grow up. He looked back at the girls, eyes wide and a grin on his face.
“Go ahead you can laugh. We have been for weeks now.”
Jasper couldn’t help it he laughed.
“That’s what you two were laughing at this whole time? The fact that Edward looks like Peter Pan?” Jasper said quiet enough that the others wouldn’t hear.
“Yep. That was Izzy’s first impression of him was when she first saw him on the quad the first day of school.”
“That is priceless. I can only guess that Alice is Tinkerbelle in this equation?”
“Dead on Jasper.”
Jasper turned and looked at Alice quickly and pictured the little green outfit and pointed shoes with the pixie dust gold glow surrounding her and he quickly turned around. He too would make that same assessment.
“Oh my god it’s no wonder you couldn’t stop laughing. I imagine her stomping her little Prada wearing foot didn’t help any either?”
Izzy was still laughing too hard to answer verbally so she just nodded.
“Then Emmett askin if y’all were on pixie dust or somethin was just the icing on the cake.”
“Oh hell it wasn’t just the icing but the sprinkles and decorations too…” Rose giggled.
“But why would you laugh at Emmett bouncing like that?” he asked pointing at the big lug.
“Take a real good look at Emmett and tell me what you see?” Izzy asked through her laughs.
“Um…well he is really tall, he hunches over slightly, he has really long monkey arms, a weirdly small waist and really big legs. He kinda resembles an ape.”
Izzy and Rose lost it then…they couldn’t hold back the laughter any longer.
“What?”
“Ape….Missing….Link…Emmett…” was all Jasper could make out of what Rose was trying to say. It wasn’t until Emmett started making strange grunting sounds did Jasper get lost in the mirth with the girls. He could see it too. A few minutes passed as they let their laughter settle.
Jasper sobered quickly though when a thought crossed his mind.
“Um Rose…Izzy if that is what you got from them then what did you get from me and Rose?”
Jasper was afraid now. He wasn’t sure if he really wanted to know what Izzy thought about him.
Izzy caught the flash of fear run across Jasper’s eyes and sobered up as well.
“Jasper it really isn’t that bad. It’s just a habit I have. I like to people watch, and to help me remember the individuals around me I give them nicknames. Like the turtle lady that we have for a teacher. You know Mrs. Gibson.”
Jasper thought about it for a while and realized that Izzy was right. Mrs. Gibson looked like a turtle. He smiled slightly but turned back to them.
“So as for my question.”
“Well I’m Aphrodite.” Rose said proudly.
“That explains the almost slip last time. And me?”
Rose and Izzy looked at each other and smiled, then Izzy braced for the worst and looked back at Jasper.
“Well Jasper seeing as every female within eyesight of you drools a puddle that most small mammals and children would drown in, I dubbed you Casanova.”
Jasper’s jaw dropped. Did he really come off that way?
“She doesn’t mean it that way Jasper. She knows you have never dated any of them…but you do break hearts because of it.”
Jasper wasn’t sure what to say. He shook his head as if to clear it and smiled. He could live with that.
“I guess I could live with that. But what did the others really get as nicknames?”
“Well Eddie is Pan, Alley is Tinkerbelle, and Emmett is Link.” Izzy said.
“Link?”
“Yeah I asked her the same thing.” Rose added.
“Missing Link.”
“Oohh.” Jasper chuckled as he shook his head.
“So can I tell them to come over or what? I don’t think I will be able to do it with a straight face now though.” Jasper added.
“Sure why not?” Izzy made it out into a question.
“Hey guys come on over.” Rose called.
The other three literally bounced over and Jasper, Izzy and Rose laughed.
“Don’t tell me they have infected you too Jazzman?” Emmett asked.
Alice huffed and stomped her foot some. While Edward still seemed to be off in la-la land. Jasper couldn’t help but laugh with the girls again. This was not gonna be good if they ever found out. Alice would be pissed, Edward would be offended and Emmett…well he would probably take it in stride like he does with everything else.
“Yep. They have Emmett. If you know what’s good for you, you won’t get to close.” Jasper said. The others backed up slightly like they didn’t wanna catch the plague, which caused another round of laughter.
“Oh will you guys grow up.” Alice chided while scrunching up her nose making her look even more like the little pixie from the fable.
Jasper had to turn away so not to laugh. Rose and Izzy didn’t fare as well.
Their playful banter was interrupted by the announcer.
“We are gonna take a five minute brake and then next up is Izzy Swan.”
Izzy froze. Where had the time gone? She didn’t even hear the others go up on stage.
“Izzy it’s alright. Don’t worry you’ll be great.” Rose said.
Jasper looked at Izzy and then to Rose. Rose shook her head at him in a not now gesture. Jasper kneeled down in front of Izzy and took her hands in his.
“Izzy…look here.” he said lifting her face to meet his. “I have heard you play several times now and so have most of the patrons that are out there. They all frequent The Music Shop, so you have nothing to worry about. Just pretend your back there in your corner, surrounded by those instruments and let it go.”
Izzy took a deep breath and looked into Jasper’s eyes. She could see that he was being honest with her, and with a small nod she smiled and grabbed her guitar.
“Thank you both for being so supportive. I think I got this now.”
“You go Swan.” Rose said.
“Thanks Aphrodite.” Izzy said.
Izzy barely registered the puzzled gazes of Tinkerbelle, Pan, and Link. She made her way to the side of the stage and spoke with the house band. They agreed on the tempo and said they knew the music well enough. She nodded and smiled. It was but a minute later the announcer called her up on stage.
Izzy smile at the crowd and made her way to center stage. She saw Jasper and Rose standing on the side of the stage with the rest of the band. She waved to them and turned back to the crowd.
“Hey everyone. I’m Izzy, and this is one of my own creations. I hope y’all enjoy it.”
The crowd clapped slightly. Izzy closed her eyes and imagined herself back in The Music Shop, surrounded my all the instruments. She let out a breath and gave the band the signal to start.
(Mama’s Broken Heart ~ Miranda Lambert)
I cut my bangs with some rusty kitchen scissors
I screamed his name till the neighbors called the cops.
I numbed the pain at the expense of my liver.
Don’t know what I did next, all I know, I couldn’t stop.
Word got round to the barflies and the Baptists.
My mama’s phone started ringing off the hook
I can hear her now saying she ain’t gonna have it.
Don’t matter how you feel, it only matters how you look.
Go and fix your makeup girl, it’s just a breakup.
Run and hide, you’re crazy and start acting like a lady.
‘Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together.
Even when you fall apart.
But this ain’t my mama’s broken heart.
Wish I could be a little less dramatic.
Like a Kennedy when Camelot went down in flames.
Leave it to me to be holding the matches,
When the fire trucks show up.
And there’s nobody else to blame.
Can’t get revenge and keep a spotless reputation.
Sometimes revenge is the choice you gotta make.
My mama came from a softer generation,
Where you get a grip and bite your lip,
Just to save a little face.
Go and fix your makeup girl, it’s just a breakup.
Run and hide, you’re crazy and start acting like a lady.
‘Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together.
Even when you fall apart, but this ain’t my mama’s broken heart.
Powder your nose, paint your toes.
Line your lips and keep ’em closed.
Cross your legs and dot your eyes,
and never let ’em see you cry.
Go and fix your makeup girl, it’s just a breakup.
Run and hide, you’re crazy and start acting like a lady.
‘Cause I raised you better, gotta keep it together.
Even when you fall apart, but this ain’t my mama’s broken heart.
The room was quiet for a moment before the cheers erupted. Izzy didn’t even realize she had gotten into the song as she was singing it. When she looked around the room everyone was on their feet. As her eyes grazed the crowd she stopped on a face she had hoped she wouldn’t have to see again.
There standing in the crowd was none other than Zavier. He seemed to be there with some college buddies. He seemed stunned that it was her up there on stage. She quickly said her thanks to the room and hastily made her way back to the others. She heard him call her name, but she kept moving. It was like prom all over again only this time she wasn’t covered in syrup or wearing a dress. That and she had friends to help her. Rose came rushing over to her.
“Izzy that was awesome.” Rose said all full of mirth. That was until she saw Izzy’s face. “What is it Izzy?”
Izzy leaned into Rose to hide what she was saying. One word said it all.
“Zavier.”
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